Dis bitch dat hoeee
soo lately things have been goin dencently.
I ended up completely dropping out of every school that I decided to attend.
School just isn't for me. I realize this will be a reason for other people to look down on me,
think of me diffrently then they would if I was in school- fuck it. They can go die.
I'm finally in a decent relationship & i'm happy with it.
Only problem here is I do alot of retarded shit because of nerves.
He probably thinks im an idiot haha.
Really I just haven't been in a relationship in awhile or
felt strongly enough about someone to date them.
Soo I still get all weird which leads me to being paranoid..
Of course about his ex. I haven't felt this strongly about someone
in awhile.
Thinking about it
i'm not even comfortable enough with myself
to be comfortable around someone who I haven't known for years.
And at that I don't really like talking to the kids I grew up with either.
I'm too worried about approving my image and shit like that all the time.
And sometimes I over do the whole situation because you can't become
perfect over night. But trying to be happy in a relationship is hard when
you're not happy with yourself, but its not impossible as ppl say.
I just makes things difficult and less enjoyable.
But i'm not sure if I can deal with the whole being paranoid.
I'm not exactly sure if I even want to do this because either way...
I could possibly setting myself up for a heart break which is the
worst feelin in the world and makes me question if i'm willing to take the risk.
Am I willing to take the risk of feeling completely torn again?
I mean theres a first for everything...Everyone gets their heart broken.
But do I want to go threw that again?....
I mean they say its better to date someone who wasn't recently involved with someone...
But really mostly everyone has been recently involved with someone & in love.
With a large past..and normal human beings don't just forget about it.
They still care for a past ex in some kinda way.
Jr. high was the best with this kinda shit.
Most kids barely knew shit about relationships..Never anything seious.
Wasn't hard to tell when someone ment what they said.
Now its just a big guessing game because almost everyone has had an ex.
And they were involved with someone new and totally fucked them over to run back to
their old miserable life not realizing there was a reason they didn't work out in the first place
& SHIT WON'T BE DIFFRENT.
fuck itt niggas
I ended up completely dropping out of every school that I decided to attend.
School just isn't for me. I realize this will be a reason for other people to look down on me,
think of me diffrently then they would if I was in school- fuck it. They can go die.
I'm finally in a decent relationship & i'm happy with it.
Only problem here is I do alot of retarded shit because of nerves.
He probably thinks im an idiot haha.
Really I just haven't been in a relationship in awhile or
felt strongly enough about someone to date them.
Soo I still get all weird which leads me to being paranoid..
Of course about his ex. I haven't felt this strongly about someone
in awhile.
Thinking about it
i'm not even comfortable enough with myself
to be comfortable around someone who I haven't known for years.
And at that I don't really like talking to the kids I grew up with either.
I'm too worried about approving my image and shit like that all the time.
And sometimes I over do the whole situation because you can't become
perfect over night. But trying to be happy in a relationship is hard when
you're not happy with yourself, but its not impossible as ppl say.
I just makes things difficult and less enjoyable.
But i'm not sure if I can deal with the whole being paranoid.
I'm not exactly sure if I even want to do this because either way...
I could possibly setting myself up for a heart break which is the
worst feelin in the world and makes me question if i'm willing to take the risk.
Am I willing to take the risk of feeling completely torn again?
I mean theres a first for everything...Everyone gets their heart broken.
But do I want to go threw that again?....
I mean they say its better to date someone who wasn't recently involved with someone...
But really mostly everyone has been recently involved with someone & in love.
With a large past..and normal human beings don't just forget about it.
They still care for a past ex in some kinda way.
Jr. high was the best with this kinda shit.
Most kids barely knew shit about relationships..Never anything seious.
Wasn't hard to tell when someone ment what they said.
Now its just a big guessing game because almost everyone has had an ex.
And they were involved with someone new and totally fucked them over to run back to
their old miserable life not realizing there was a reason they didn't work out in the first place
& SHIT WON'T BE DIFFRENT.
fuck itt niggas