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i've had so many emotions in the last hour. but for now, i'm happy and comforted. you have your place and your friends who are there for you through this shitty night. i have mine who do the same. it makes me happy that even if we're not talking, we'll never be alone. we had each other at such a young age and through the past 2 decades we branched out and met wonderful people. even if it is the end of an era, it is the beginning of a new one. if i have to accept it, i will. i'm thankful for all those memories. watching the montage (?) made me cry so hard it hurt. it filled up my heart. i lashed out about it because i don't have that anymore. but i'm glad to have had the past, even if it can't be my future. it is better that i had it and it ended the way it did, then never had it to begin with. it hurts now, we miss being those nerdy kids. the pain will go away eventually.
i hope one day we won't be mad at each other. we were so lucky to have what we had. maybe we just grew out of each other. our personalities didn't work together like they used to. everything stopped being silly and funny. it'll be alright.
every time i see a 711, catholic school kids, lip rings or two little girls playing on a playground, i won't cry. but i will smile, knowing that you're okay and i am too.
i hope one day we won't be mad at each other. we were so lucky to have what we had. maybe we just grew out of each other. our personalities didn't work together like they used to. everything stopped being silly and funny. it'll be alright.
every time i see a 711, catholic school kids, lip rings or two little girls playing on a playground, i won't cry. but i will smile, knowing that you're okay and i am too.