Life.
Ello ello, to all. ( Possibly one person IF so )
It's been a while... always is.
Maybe if my internet connexion wasnt so shitty i would write more.
I must say i do enjoy writting.. so i probably would. yup.
Anyway not much is changing in my life. Same boy, same appartment, same job, same stinky dog.
My family isint doing much better than they ever have. Seb's thinking of joining the army.
Paolo's just.. fucked up alot. Layla is still the prettiest child i've ever seen. And sabrina is still a demon child.
but i love her too death.
Mom's alright as always, all though i must say i miss her alot.
Moving out really changed alot.
I'm always working, yet always broke. Can never shop like all my friends.
Heck sheena buys a new pair of shoes every week.
Me it's more like once a year. It pisses me off. they have no responsiblites.
"tina, you should really try saving money so we can go on a trip"
Yeah..easy for you to fucking say. I pay rent, when i eat?! I PAY FOR IT.
When i drink. I pay for it.
.. i don't want all this shit.
But i cant go back home now.
Seb's living there ever since the divorce talk, and apparently he's been drinking a fuck load.
I can't deal with him when he's smashed.
Neither can my mom. I don't want to be around that, she doesnt deserve that.
He doesnt deserve that. I wish I could rewind time.
Go back.
When i read this journal it makes me so sad. Life used to be so exiting everyday new shit.
new places. I had so many friends they were comming outta my ass.
And now.. i have 3.
the same 3 that i have loved and have loved me back.
But still.
I miss going out and having FUN. real fun.
I miss feeling pretty.
I miss feeling loved.
shit's changed and i don't like it.
I'm trying to change it, but it's so much stuff that i don't know where to start.
And frankly, im scared.
I'm scared of change.
Bah..dilemma's of life eh...
Anyways i'm going to bun b tonite.
And i have to get back to work.
It's been a while... always is.
Maybe if my internet connexion wasnt so shitty i would write more.
I must say i do enjoy writting.. so i probably would. yup.
Anyway not much is changing in my life. Same boy, same appartment, same job, same stinky dog.
My family isint doing much better than they ever have. Seb's thinking of joining the army.
Paolo's just.. fucked up alot. Layla is still the prettiest child i've ever seen. And sabrina is still a demon child.
but i love her too death.
Mom's alright as always, all though i must say i miss her alot.
Moving out really changed alot.
I'm always working, yet always broke. Can never shop like all my friends.
Heck sheena buys a new pair of shoes every week.
Me it's more like once a year. It pisses me off. they have no responsiblites.
"tina, you should really try saving money so we can go on a trip"
Yeah..easy for you to fucking say. I pay rent, when i eat?! I PAY FOR IT.
When i drink. I pay for it.
.. i don't want all this shit.
But i cant go back home now.
Seb's living there ever since the divorce talk, and apparently he's been drinking a fuck load.
I can't deal with him when he's smashed.
Neither can my mom. I don't want to be around that, she doesnt deserve that.
He doesnt deserve that. I wish I could rewind time.
Go back.
When i read this journal it makes me so sad. Life used to be so exiting everyday new shit.
new places. I had so many friends they were comming outta my ass.
And now.. i have 3.
the same 3 that i have loved and have loved me back.
But still.
I miss going out and having FUN. real fun.
I miss feeling pretty.
I miss feeling loved.
shit's changed and i don't like it.
I'm trying to change it, but it's so much stuff that i don't know where to start.
And frankly, im scared.
I'm scared of change.
Bah..dilemma's of life eh...
Anyways i'm going to bun b tonite.
And i have to get back to work.