beauty

[mindlessecho]

i'm writing you
this letter to let you know
i'm not alright
cry yourself to sleep tonight

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i'm falling down
i'm falling down
and you're not there to break my fall
i shut my eyes when your around
i hold my breath to kill the sound

i'm falling down
i'm falling down
and you're not here to catch my fall

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i look
your head is turned away
from the moment you left i knew that something wasn't right
but the feeling inside has kept me up all night
you and me
like one heartbeat

forget my name

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we're so nice sitting very still
in a room where no one else can feel
the pain that breaks my heart is day
i'm not okay

sunlight shining through my window
lets me know that i'm still alive
why did i ever let you inside my heart
i'm such a fool

but i should have known that you were a killer
but now i'm dead
a lost connection from your poison dart
you'll never know

the hardest thing about dying is
knowing you'll never see the light of day
i try so fucking hard
but i can't fit your mold

you ripped my heart out
don't you know that
i always see you
in all of my dreams

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but these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing

maybe i should hate you for this
never really did ever get quite that far

i'd never lie to you
unless i had to
i'll do what i got to
the truth
is you could slit my throat
and with my one last gasping breath
i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

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what did they mean to you
wrapping my arms around your body
protecting and holding you
maybe it wasn't good enough
but I gave you all I could

with your sweet whispers
that never told me you'd leave me this way
if you told me you were happy
if you told me that you miss me
is it something that I can't see
it's something I can't be

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and i can't stop pretending
that you're forever mine
i can't dream anymore since you left
i miss you singing me to sleep
i can't wake anymore in your arms
i miss you singing me to sleep

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for now....