hmmm
Yeah so I am bored. Bored with life waiting to hear from my new employer. The time it takes for the results of the drug test sucks. I mean I am bored as hell all day long well until Kelly gets home then everything is cool. but what happened all day? Jack shit happened. I clean, watched tv, thought about going to foxwoods but in reality the money I have in the bank needs to stay there and I have better uses for it like bills. That wasn't me in 2001 to 2003 I would have had no money in the bank to go and the one time I did have some and was in between jobs I had like 90 bucks and I turned it into 400 at foxwoods but that isnt always the case sometimes the house wins. I mean times have changed and well I have too. I digress on the "where my thoughts during the day when everyone is "working" thoughts. I really wish I was doing something. Cleaning up only takes so long. It's not a mess to begin with. I really wished it would have stormed today but not here. I was and am still hoping to see lightning tonight. But I am sure it is not on the "agenda" for tonights weather. I am tired yet wired. I miss my old job and really wished I never left it. Sure I have 5 slightly herniated discs and 2 slightly bulged discs in my back with degenerative disease in my upper spine but I liked what I did. I liked the customers I had every week. It was nice to speak to them and the job was hard work but it was nice after a long day I backed the truck to the dock door and opened her up and pulled out the empty skids and I had a sense of accomplishment. And every thursday I got to go to the Cape and it was nice because as a kid I vacationed there and I would sometimes I would be a little late to my first stop because I would pull the truck over on rt 6a and watch the sun rise over the cape cod canal. nothing real special but at the right moment it would be silent. The truck would be off and no cars going by and for a mere few seconds I loved my job lol. Hard to love something that puts you in so much pain. I had so many compliments from those customers that it made me feel good even after a particular rough day or soemthing. It was nice. Now it is gone and sometimes I just want to drive somewhere. It would be nice just to drive. I have seen so many places and I have only traveled in NH,Ma,Ct,RI,NY,Long Island. I mean this job is cool. When you get behind the wheel and get her going it is nice and to be able to go places, sure you get lost but as a new guy in the industry I would get pissed off and now I read maps and plot before I go anywhere. I am well aware where I am headed and how to manuver the damn monster bitch where ever I go. Plain and simple I miss a hard days work for damn good pay and I miss trucking. Soon enough I will hear back from that employer but until then I suffer sitting around looking out my window at other apartments.......Maybe tomorrow after I go to a few places to fill out applications I will go for a drive.......