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So I had a short break in between classes today, so I went to World Cup to get a bagel. Instead of putting the butter on it for me, they gave me litte packages and a knife. So I stopped at a table in the lobby of the West building to butter my bagel and sort through some things before class. While I'm doing this, a REALLY cute guy sits down at my table to scarf down a sandwich. I couldn't even bare to make eye contact, let alone say hello. He didn't say anything either... but when he left, I wanted to smash my head into the wall behind me. Why couldn't I have just said hello? Is hello such a hard word to say? Should such a simple salutation be so fucking difficult? Why do I have to be so god damn shy? Is that why I'm alone? Will my life stay like this until I muster up the courage to fucking greet a guy when he sits down next to me instead of looking away? Does my shyness come off as bitchiness? Is that why guys don't talk to me? Do they think I'm a pretentious bitch?
GAHH!!
crying myself to sleep
goodnight
GAHH!!
crying myself to sleep
goodnight