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Would you know my name... If I saw you in heaven?
Would you be the same... If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong.. and carry on... Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven...
Would you hold my hand.. If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand.. If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way.. through night and day.. cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven...
Time can bring you down.. Time can bend your knee..
Time can break your heart.. have beggin please.. beggin please..........
Beyond the door... There's peace I am sure.. And I know there will be no more tears in heaven....
Would you know my name.. If I saw you in heaven..
Would it be the same.. If I saw you in heaven...
I must be strong.. and carry on.. cause I know I don't belong here in heaven...
Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven...
I have listened to this song so many times today... Right after kristen died this song came out. Before I couldn't listen to it.. cause it hurt so much.. Who am I kidding it still does.. I can't listen to it without crying.. I am such a baby.. but god I miss her so much... Half of me is missing... and I will never be whole again.. Ever since I can remember I wanted a sister so badly.. then I got one.. and then she was gone.... I feel her around me sometimes.. I wonder if I am making her happy... I did everything I could think of that would make her happy... I danced for her for years.... I stepped up and tried to be the daughter that my parents lost... but there is no filling her shoes... I just want to hold her one more time... I wanna fight with her and laugh with her.. and I would shave my head for the rest of my life to get her back.. Oh wait I have already done that... OMG I thought 9 years would make some of the pain would go away.. but its not..She was so beautiful and perfect and I am so honored that I got to have to her for such a short period of time... But it isn't fair... When I was in detroit my physic aunt was giving me a massage and she tapped into kristens energy that was in the room.. and out of the blue my aunt just said "She says that you win" No one else knew that we were fighting when she died.. so I know she wasn't just trying to make me feel better... I heard that and just started to laugh and cry at the same time.. My heart lifted so high.. for her to let me win for once means so much to me... but it doesn't matter... I wanted my kids to know her... I wanted her in my life for good.. I WANT HER BACK... DAMN IT... I need her... I need her so much.. I need her advice.. tho I would never have to ask for it.. she would just tell me what she thought no matter what was going on..I am starting to forget her... Next week is going to be so hard... cause not only do we not have her.. we just lost my papaw too and then my nanna lost my grandpa... I know thats life.. and I know that life isn't fair.. and that she left me 9 years ago.. but I don't give a fuck.. she was my sister and for me to say that I am not over her death and I am crying like mad right now.. my face has black streaks all down it.. I am human. so what...
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away..
I keep your photograph.. I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.. cause I am broken
When I am lonesome.. and I don't feel right when your gone away
You've gone away.. you don't feel me..ANYMORE..
The worest is over now and we can breath again
I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away
There is so much left to learn and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause I am broken. when I am open.. and I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I am broken .. when I am lonesome.. and I don't feel right when your gone away
Cause I am broken.. when I am open.. and I don't feel like I am strong enough..Cause I am broken .. when I am lonesome and I don't feel right when your gone away...
You've gone away...
You don't feel me..anymore....
Before you take a swing.. I wonder what are we fighting for.. When I say outloud I wanna get out of this.. I wonder is there anything that I ma going to miss?
I wonder how its going to be when you don't know.. hows it gonna be when you say .. oh I am not there.. Hows it going to be when thers no there to talk to .. between you and me.. cause I don't care.. hows it going to be... Hows it going to be?????
Where we used to laugh theres a shouting match sharp as a thumbnail scratch.. a silence that I can't ignore.. like the hamic by the door.. were we would spend time now swings empty.. It don't seem like me.. when it was always about to hit me.. I wonder hows it going to be when it goes down.. hows it gonna be when your not around.. hows it gonna be when you found out there is nothing between you and me.. I don't care.. hows it gonna be???
Hows it gonna be when you don't know me anymore.. hows it gonna be?
Hey lady you got the love I need.. maybe I am a better man.. oh darlin darlin darlin. walk around with me.. oh you got so much .,.. so much... so much...
Many times I've gazed on the open road... Many times I've lied.. many times I've listened.. many times.. I've wondered how much there is to know... Many dreams come true..
Would you be the same... If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong.. and carry on... Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven...
Would you hold my hand.. If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand.. If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way.. through night and day.. cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven...
Time can bring you down.. Time can bend your knee..
Time can break your heart.. have beggin please.. beggin please..........
Beyond the door... There's peace I am sure.. And I know there will be no more tears in heaven....
Would you know my name.. If I saw you in heaven..
Would it be the same.. If I saw you in heaven...
I must be strong.. and carry on.. cause I know I don't belong here in heaven...
Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven...
I have listened to this song so many times today... Right after kristen died this song came out. Before I couldn't listen to it.. cause it hurt so much.. Who am I kidding it still does.. I can't listen to it without crying.. I am such a baby.. but god I miss her so much... Half of me is missing... and I will never be whole again.. Ever since I can remember I wanted a sister so badly.. then I got one.. and then she was gone.... I feel her around me sometimes.. I wonder if I am making her happy... I did everything I could think of that would make her happy... I danced for her for years.... I stepped up and tried to be the daughter that my parents lost... but there is no filling her shoes... I just want to hold her one more time... I wanna fight with her and laugh with her.. and I would shave my head for the rest of my life to get her back.. Oh wait I have already done that... OMG I thought 9 years would make some of the pain would go away.. but its not..She was so beautiful and perfect and I am so honored that I got to have to her for such a short period of time... But it isn't fair... When I was in detroit my physic aunt was giving me a massage and she tapped into kristens energy that was in the room.. and out of the blue my aunt just said "She says that you win" No one else knew that we were fighting when she died.. so I know she wasn't just trying to make me feel better... I heard that and just started to laugh and cry at the same time.. My heart lifted so high.. for her to let me win for once means so much to me... but it doesn't matter... I wanted my kids to know her... I wanted her in my life for good.. I WANT HER BACK... DAMN IT... I need her... I need her so much.. I need her advice.. tho I would never have to ask for it.. she would just tell me what she thought no matter what was going on..I am starting to forget her... Next week is going to be so hard... cause not only do we not have her.. we just lost my papaw too and then my nanna lost my grandpa... I know thats life.. and I know that life isn't fair.. and that she left me 9 years ago.. but I don't give a fuck.. she was my sister and for me to say that I am not over her death and I am crying like mad right now.. my face has black streaks all down it.. I am human. so what...
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away..
I keep your photograph.. I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.. cause I am broken
When I am lonesome.. and I don't feel right when your gone away
You've gone away.. you don't feel me..ANYMORE..
The worest is over now and we can breath again
I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away
There is so much left to learn and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause I am broken. when I am open.. and I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I am broken .. when I am lonesome.. and I don't feel right when your gone away
Cause I am broken.. when I am open.. and I don't feel like I am strong enough..Cause I am broken .. when I am lonesome and I don't feel right when your gone away...
You've gone away...
You don't feel me..anymore....
Before you take a swing.. I wonder what are we fighting for.. When I say outloud I wanna get out of this.. I wonder is there anything that I ma going to miss?
I wonder how its going to be when you don't know.. hows it gonna be when you say .. oh I am not there.. Hows it going to be when thers no there to talk to .. between you and me.. cause I don't care.. hows it going to be... Hows it going to be?????
Where we used to laugh theres a shouting match sharp as a thumbnail scratch.. a silence that I can't ignore.. like the hamic by the door.. were we would spend time now swings empty.. It don't seem like me.. when it was always about to hit me.. I wonder hows it going to be when it goes down.. hows it gonna be when your not around.. hows it gonna be when you found out there is nothing between you and me.. I don't care.. hows it gonna be???
Hows it gonna be when you don't know me anymore.. hows it gonna be?
Hey lady you got the love I need.. maybe I am a better man.. oh darlin darlin darlin. walk around with me.. oh you got so much .,.. so much... so much...
Many times I've gazed on the open road... Many times I've lied.. many times I've listened.. many times.. I've wondered how much there is to know... Many dreams come true..