a plea to be moved
i wonder why i let myself get to these points sometimes.
i work myself too hard, i start to feel devoid of emotion. everything i do is done with the motivation "don't let them down, don't let yourself down" and i forget to feel anything besides these inadequate, unapprecaited feelings. i feel needy, but i push people away. "i have work to do, but don't go." mood swings? i guess. it sucks.
... and then i hear a song that puts a *ping* into me. and it's deep, something i haven't touched for a long time. and i miss that feeling. i need to listen to more music that moves me... i'm always amazed how a format that i'm so disattached from can move me so much. that use to be all that i listened to, but it's been so hard to come by lately (or i haven't looked hard enough). and don't you dare call me emo.
all i'm asking for is to be moved ... moved beyond words, is that too much? probably, but i think i'll start making more of an effort to find it.
i work myself too hard, i start to feel devoid of emotion. everything i do is done with the motivation "don't let them down, don't let yourself down" and i forget to feel anything besides these inadequate, unapprecaited feelings. i feel needy, but i push people away. "i have work to do, but don't go." mood swings? i guess. it sucks.
... and then i hear a song that puts a *ping* into me. and it's deep, something i haven't touched for a long time. and i miss that feeling. i need to listen to more music that moves me... i'm always amazed how a format that i'm so disattached from can move me so much. that use to be all that i listened to, but it's been so hard to come by lately (or i haven't looked hard enough). and don't you dare call me emo.
all i'm asking for is to be moved ... moved beyond words, is that too much? probably, but i think i'll start making more of an effort to find it.