melancholy bunnies
so today now technically yesterday was easter...good times. i woke up feeling okay around 1pm to kelly saying "i'm leaving"...called anna around 2 to tell her i was going to the poo and see if she wanted to come along...we ended up chatting on the phone for almost an hour about how ambivalent boys are. i am really just over the whole boy situation at this point. sorry boys, i'm on hiatus! i actually brought up the whole shawn thing with anna on the phone...it's kind of an awkward topic of discussion for us. i try to figure out sometimes why things happened the way they did, but i never can. all i know is i ended up extremely sad, hurt, and losing him and anna as friends. who the fuk am i kidding i'm still extremely hurt and sad over him. i am saddened thinking that i probably won't ever see him again...even though he was evil. i need closure and that's the problem. i am thinking of writing a letter to him just to tell him what i never got the chance to say..i think i will.
it's hard to love someone, sometimes i think harder than it is to be alone.
humm.......enough of that....blah.
yeah so for easter anna was my family. we decided we wanted italian and scooted on down to carraba's to get some grub. i had some chicken that reminded me of a dinner i ate at cheesecake factory a few months ago and then threw up. it was the flu. the salad was bombbiggety and fresh bread at carraba's though. after dinner we went to walgreens to buy some discount easter candy, then i came home and gave gabbi and xan baths. gabbi doesn't care too much for the bathing. i think i may stay up a little while longer and pack some. i'm overwhelmed with thoughts today and laying down will only make me cry. i wish they made peeps that frowned....i just don't feel like being around happy chickis right now.
it's hard to love someone, sometimes i think harder than it is to be alone.
humm.......enough of that....blah.
yeah so for easter anna was my family. we decided we wanted italian and scooted on down to carraba's to get some grub. i had some chicken that reminded me of a dinner i ate at cheesecake factory a few months ago and then threw up. it was the flu. the salad was bombbiggety and fresh bread at carraba's though. after dinner we went to walgreens to buy some discount easter candy, then i came home and gave gabbi and xan baths. gabbi doesn't care too much for the bathing. i think i may stay up a little while longer and pack some. i'm overwhelmed with thoughts today and laying down will only make me cry. i wish they made peeps that frowned....i just don't feel like being around happy chickis right now.