Today...
I work tonight...thats lame espically since I woke up early and went running and then worked out and I can't sleep to save my life...I need a nap!!! I also went to Kroger and bought the things I would need to make the same AMAZING stur fry Amy always makes me and my dumb ass got the wrong soy sauce. WHAT THE HELL!!!??? So I'll eat it...but I'd rather eat hers...which she promiced to make me tomorrow. :)
In other news...SO much is going on in my life right now that I can almost not take it. Amy, Denise and I are joining the Navy...so we will never see eachother again because we do get breaks but whos to say that all three of us will have our break at the same time...sad day. Then I've been talking to this girl named Sara on myspace that I just about a week ago learned was my cousin on my FATHERS side...thats right kids...I finaly know who my father is...and I'M FREAKING OUT!!! Its like learning all 21 years of myself all over again, in a week. Its confusing to say the least. Then about two weeks ago if that a really good family friend died...and we didn't see it coming. She was 36 with a 13 year old son that I loved dearly and a husband that was practicly my uncle for most of my childhood, since my mother dated his brother for about 5 years. Its funny the things you remember about a person when they are gone. Like I remember her babysitting me, and we would watch Planet of the Apes (the old one, which is much better anyway) light candles and eat mac and cheese. I remember the smell of their apartment. Its all very strange. My mother has been a wreck...on top of her losing this good friend my cousin's husbands father just passed away so they have moved back here to take care of his mother but they still have their jobs in Ohio so their kids have been living with my mother, who now has four kids and has to feed them, take them to school, help them with homework...and since Monica is moving accross seas soon she has decided to live with my mother while she IS here so there are SO many people in that house, not to mention my mother is on the PTA and runing girlscouts all by herself now. And all the animals in that house now. And to top it off the poor woman has M.S. GOD DAMN!!!
Oh yeah...and I'm being sued by my old skanky land lord that never kept the house up and my roomates made me feel like shit...where I still have at least half my stuff that god knows if I'll ever get back...I had over 500 pictures there...I'm crushed...and my scared ass can't go back to get them...I feel helpless. Helpless for my mother, for my stuff, for amy and denise and most of all for myself. Which is another huge reason I'm joining the Navy...which has also proven to be very stressful, and not because of what I have to go through but because of the way people react. Because of the things I have to do to get there.
AND BECAUSE I told Marci...someone I never thought would ever doubt me, or stop supporting me, or stop loving me EVER...and she won't even talk to me...I think a part of me has died inside...
And to top ALL THIS BULL SHIT OFF...I don't have a ride to work tonight...BLAH!!!
Sorry for my VERY long rant...
Love, Melinda Sue
In other news...SO much is going on in my life right now that I can almost not take it. Amy, Denise and I are joining the Navy...so we will never see eachother again because we do get breaks but whos to say that all three of us will have our break at the same time...sad day. Then I've been talking to this girl named Sara on myspace that I just about a week ago learned was my cousin on my FATHERS side...thats right kids...I finaly know who my father is...and I'M FREAKING OUT!!! Its like learning all 21 years of myself all over again, in a week. Its confusing to say the least. Then about two weeks ago if that a really good family friend died...and we didn't see it coming. She was 36 with a 13 year old son that I loved dearly and a husband that was practicly my uncle for most of my childhood, since my mother dated his brother for about 5 years. Its funny the things you remember about a person when they are gone. Like I remember her babysitting me, and we would watch Planet of the Apes (the old one, which is much better anyway) light candles and eat mac and cheese. I remember the smell of their apartment. Its all very strange. My mother has been a wreck...on top of her losing this good friend my cousin's husbands father just passed away so they have moved back here to take care of his mother but they still have their jobs in Ohio so their kids have been living with my mother, who now has four kids and has to feed them, take them to school, help them with homework...and since Monica is moving accross seas soon she has decided to live with my mother while she IS here so there are SO many people in that house, not to mention my mother is on the PTA and runing girlscouts all by herself now. And all the animals in that house now. And to top it off the poor woman has M.S. GOD DAMN!!!
Oh yeah...and I'm being sued by my old skanky land lord that never kept the house up and my roomates made me feel like shit...where I still have at least half my stuff that god knows if I'll ever get back...I had over 500 pictures there...I'm crushed...and my scared ass can't go back to get them...I feel helpless. Helpless for my mother, for my stuff, for amy and denise and most of all for myself. Which is another huge reason I'm joining the Navy...which has also proven to be very stressful, and not because of what I have to go through but because of the way people react. Because of the things I have to do to get there.
AND BECAUSE I told Marci...someone I never thought would ever doubt me, or stop supporting me, or stop loving me EVER...and she won't even talk to me...I think a part of me has died inside...
And to top ALL THIS BULL SHIT OFF...I don't have a ride to work tonight...BLAH!!!
Sorry for my VERY long rant...
Love, Melinda Sue