Grrr!

[mindah]

So everytime I think I have everything figured out or at least a little figured out things change. I try my hardest not to feel, not to get wrapped up in it all. And actually tonight there was a small break through but it came with a price as things usually do. 6 months is a long time, its a long time to wait for an answer, a long time to wait in general. I don't think I can do it. I'm not sure whats going on anymore. What to do...life is crazy, it just keeps throwing you curve balls. I need to smoke...but I'm on hold for tech support since our stupid trans machine isn't working again! Gotta go... :)

Love, Melinda Sue