ho hum...
before my entry I'd like to do a ten things to people because I need to get them out.
1. I miss you more than words can say. I wish things were different and then again I don't. I think everything happens for a reason and as long as you are happy now I'm happy for you.
2. I don't get you. I don't get you at all. I felt like I could trust you but I feel like you are leaving too, and you know what go a head because if you want to leave I don't need you anyway. But God help me, I would give anything to make you stay.
3. I know that you are my best friends girlfriend but I hope you know that, that isn't all you are to me. You are an amazing friend and I don't know what I'd do without you!
4. You my dear are my best friend. You make my world go round and without you I have NO f-ing clue where I'd be. I go through withdrawls when I don't see you. We help eachother through all the hard stuff and laugh together through all the good and I can't say I'd want anyone else to EVER fill your spot in my life.
5. I don't know if this friendship is going to work. I don't know whats going on and I'm kind of sick of it all. And honestly if we weren't thrown together I don't know if we would be friends.
6. Out of habit everytime you are mad I think it is at me and I can't tell you how much I wish I was in your life more. And at times I think maybe I'm too lazy, or it isn't that easy. But I do, I miss you...
7. I don't even know what to say to you...like always. I never know what to say or do or feel with you. Though at the same time I feel so connected it hurts I've never understood the hold you have over me and I never will.
8. I wish we could talk. I wish we could be close again. I'm not sure why, maybe because I know you are a good person and I miss that even if I don't miss us. But I wish you felt the same.
9. You are amazing to me. And we connect in a way that is hard to understand but I'm glad we found eachother and that we are friends because you mean a lot to me.
10. You rock my world. You are an amazing, funny, smart, beautiful woman that I can't seam to get enough of! And I think I've told you this before but you are the reason I sign my name Melinda Sue...I love it when you call me that! :)
and because I can...
11. I haven't told you lately because I'm scared of stuff like that but I'm SO pissed at you i can't even see straight when I think of you. Everytime I even mention something you throw it back in my face saying things that make me feel like you are doing this on purpous for the past. And what I don't understand is if you know how it feels, why would you do it to someone else? I can't even tell you how sorry I am and I've said it over and over again, and I think I did a good job making up for it...but I can't wait around forever, and I wont...in fact I've already started giving up...so why don't you try a little....for me at least...if you still care.
WOW...and there you have it. And now I'm not really in the mood to write anything else, I have a bunch of work to do and I need a smoke before I go crazy...but I have to save some for the walk home! :) I love you all and hope you have an amazing day/night!
Love, Melinda Sue
1. I miss you more than words can say. I wish things were different and then again I don't. I think everything happens for a reason and as long as you are happy now I'm happy for you.
2. I don't get you. I don't get you at all. I felt like I could trust you but I feel like you are leaving too, and you know what go a head because if you want to leave I don't need you anyway. But God help me, I would give anything to make you stay.
3. I know that you are my best friends girlfriend but I hope you know that, that isn't all you are to me. You are an amazing friend and I don't know what I'd do without you!
4. You my dear are my best friend. You make my world go round and without you I have NO f-ing clue where I'd be. I go through withdrawls when I don't see you. We help eachother through all the hard stuff and laugh together through all the good and I can't say I'd want anyone else to EVER fill your spot in my life.
5. I don't know if this friendship is going to work. I don't know whats going on and I'm kind of sick of it all. And honestly if we weren't thrown together I don't know if we would be friends.
6. Out of habit everytime you are mad I think it is at me and I can't tell you how much I wish I was in your life more. And at times I think maybe I'm too lazy, or it isn't that easy. But I do, I miss you...
7. I don't even know what to say to you...like always. I never know what to say or do or feel with you. Though at the same time I feel so connected it hurts I've never understood the hold you have over me and I never will.
8. I wish we could talk. I wish we could be close again. I'm not sure why, maybe because I know you are a good person and I miss that even if I don't miss us. But I wish you felt the same.
9. You are amazing to me. And we connect in a way that is hard to understand but I'm glad we found eachother and that we are friends because you mean a lot to me.
10. You rock my world. You are an amazing, funny, smart, beautiful woman that I can't seam to get enough of! And I think I've told you this before but you are the reason I sign my name Melinda Sue...I love it when you call me that! :)
and because I can...
11. I haven't told you lately because I'm scared of stuff like that but I'm SO pissed at you i can't even see straight when I think of you. Everytime I even mention something you throw it back in my face saying things that make me feel like you are doing this on purpous for the past. And what I don't understand is if you know how it feels, why would you do it to someone else? I can't even tell you how sorry I am and I've said it over and over again, and I think I did a good job making up for it...but I can't wait around forever, and I wont...in fact I've already started giving up...so why don't you try a little....for me at least...if you still care.
WOW...and there you have it. And now I'm not really in the mood to write anything else, I have a bunch of work to do and I need a smoke before I go crazy...but I have to save some for the walk home! :) I love you all and hope you have an amazing day/night!
Love, Melinda Sue