Harsh Words, Girl
I fucked up. I said I was sorry, and I truly am. There's nothing more I can do other than try to become a happier person who won't do such things. So long as you continue to send me such angry notes that pull back into the pain I'm trying to leave however...moving past this into stable friendship is not a logical reality.
I am trying to admit to my mistakes and move past them, please let me do so and try to do the same for yourself because dwelling on them as you do is only going to pull you down further.
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On other notes, my heart is apparently retarded and basically the whole Girl thing should probably piss off for my own well being. At least I caught myself leaping too fast this time. Despite talking to her for hours and hours each night this past week for whatever reason, I still have a lot to learn about her. And she's certainly not looking for anything right now. We have some really cool energy between us, though. Well, when she isn't drunk at least. Which she was again tonight at Alicia's. I think I'll just leave that alone for now.
I also have way too many commissions for my own good right now. I think 8? Most have to be done by the end of the month, aie aie aie.
I don't think I want love so much right now (it would be nice, still) so much as something tangible with another person, something to help balance me out right now. And someone to hold, I suppose.
I'm going to try and go out next weekend because I haven't for the past two and I should really be more social.