The Reminder
Emotions are off the chart, I go from being extremely happy and content to very imbalanced and depressed for no reason. I've become a nasty grumpy bitch. It's like being dragged up by the hand of God and then being dropped down into Hell again. Not to be over dramatic.
However I've found that through talking to my friends when they are down, and reciting what I have learned in the past about life, that it reminds me of the hope that remains out there. It's a short high but it gives me a glimmer of what will emerge after this chaotic two week period.
I'm rewriting what I told a friend of mine as both a reminder to myself of the truth in these words and also as a note to others in a similar place.
It's hardly verbatim but the ideas are the same.
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One thing I've learned is that through finding beauty in everything, I could also finally find beauty in myself. It helped being an artist, I've always seen beauty in objects like apple cores or a frog's tongue or I don't know.
But for people it was a bit more difficult. It comes down to breaking them down to their core, because there we're essentially all the same.
Life molds us from that core, experiences make us who we are and what we see the world as.
But if you understand that at our core, we're all the same, and that we're all connected, then you can see the beauty in that core, because it's so innocent and uncorrupt.
And if you can see that, you can see it in yourself.
Once you see that in yourself, and you can really love who you are, then being hated by other people doesn't really matter so much anymore. Because you know that the people who are hating you are in a place that still has to lead them to where you've arrived. Not in a holier than thou sense, but in a sort of calm understanding. You don't pity them, they just leave that place from under your skin and exist in a world of their own.
Some people feel the need to be something, and to this I ask why, when you already are? Well, it's true that we can always improve upon ourselves, but it's important to love yourself for who you are now.
Add to the situation with these things but don't feel that you need to do them to be worth something, because every person is already worth so much simply in their own existence.
Personally, what I've grown to have is an inner spirituality in my life tied to no religion, just to myself. I feel that oneself is a sacred place that should be cherished.
And I feel that as we only live life that we should live it to it's fullest, keeping clear of unhealthy cycles and letting life grow through us. I believe that people are good and that there is a unity between us that society has forgotten because of how mechanical life has become in modern times.
But going to events like Shambhala really make it clear that we still pine for it down in our souls.
We're good creatures.
"but you arent anti-future. my posuer hippies hate everything about the modern day and try to live in the 70s. and yet they own cell phones."
Well I don't like aspects of what we're doing to our lives with our pretty warped cultures and beliefs, and I think we've lost our way, yea...not all of us, of course, but a majority have.
Still, that doesn't mean we can't get back on our path. I think in order for that to be achieved we have to reach a sort of dangerous apex first, push ourselves to the brink of our own destruction because that is the only time that great change ever occurs.
I think if people started seeing the beauty in themselves than the world would become a much better home to all of us. And even moreso if we could begin to see it in all others.
We've become so focused on ourselves that we've forgotten the importance of true community.
If every person helped two more in need, think of the world we could have.
Is that an ideal absurdity? Maybe. But I'd like to think that we come to change before we blow ourselves up.
To me it seems that more people are feeling this same way, so that gives me hope.
However I've found that through talking to my friends when they are down, and reciting what I have learned in the past about life, that it reminds me of the hope that remains out there. It's a short high but it gives me a glimmer of what will emerge after this chaotic two week period.
I'm rewriting what I told a friend of mine as both a reminder to myself of the truth in these words and also as a note to others in a similar place.
It's hardly verbatim but the ideas are the same.
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One thing I've learned is that through finding beauty in everything, I could also finally find beauty in myself. It helped being an artist, I've always seen beauty in objects like apple cores or a frog's tongue or I don't know.
But for people it was a bit more difficult. It comes down to breaking them down to their core, because there we're essentially all the same.
Life molds us from that core, experiences make us who we are and what we see the world as.
But if you understand that at our core, we're all the same, and that we're all connected, then you can see the beauty in that core, because it's so innocent and uncorrupt.
And if you can see that, you can see it in yourself.
Once you see that in yourself, and you can really love who you are, then being hated by other people doesn't really matter so much anymore. Because you know that the people who are hating you are in a place that still has to lead them to where you've arrived. Not in a holier than thou sense, but in a sort of calm understanding. You don't pity them, they just leave that place from under your skin and exist in a world of their own.
Some people feel the need to be something, and to this I ask why, when you already are? Well, it's true that we can always improve upon ourselves, but it's important to love yourself for who you are now.
Add to the situation with these things but don't feel that you need to do them to be worth something, because every person is already worth so much simply in their own existence.
Personally, what I've grown to have is an inner spirituality in my life tied to no religion, just to myself. I feel that oneself is a sacred place that should be cherished.
And I feel that as we only live life that we should live it to it's fullest, keeping clear of unhealthy cycles and letting life grow through us. I believe that people are good and that there is a unity between us that society has forgotten because of how mechanical life has become in modern times.
But going to events like Shambhala really make it clear that we still pine for it down in our souls.
We're good creatures.
"but you arent anti-future. my posuer hippies hate everything about the modern day and try to live in the 70s. and yet they own cell phones."
Well I don't like aspects of what we're doing to our lives with our pretty warped cultures and beliefs, and I think we've lost our way, yea...not all of us, of course, but a majority have.
Still, that doesn't mean we can't get back on our path. I think in order for that to be achieved we have to reach a sort of dangerous apex first, push ourselves to the brink of our own destruction because that is the only time that great change ever occurs.
I think if people started seeing the beauty in themselves than the world would become a much better home to all of us. And even moreso if we could begin to see it in all others.
We've become so focused on ourselves that we've forgotten the importance of true community.
If every person helped two more in need, think of the world we could have.
Is that an ideal absurdity? Maybe. But I'd like to think that we come to change before we blow ourselves up.
To me it seems that more people are feeling this same way, so that gives me hope.