why dose life do this to me?

[mind_gym]

so i'm getting swamped by all these project and papers which aren't being done but because i'm not doing them i'm getting closer with diffrent people and i'm sort of starting to like myself but then i say what about your future chris and then it's blank. sometimes it feels like i should have only lived up to a certin age and i already passed it so, everything is blank/empty. just a really wired feeling. also with applying to college i say to myself if i'm pulling this crap at triton why whould i change?
ne ways thats an update
:P