this is what ive been waiting for?

[mind__games]

so summer... im pretty damn bored, i dont go up to maine for a little while longer, maybe ill head up this weekend. ive been drawing, making bags, jewelry, and whatever else i can do.. ive done too much cleaning of my house for open houses and what not.. im just tired of it. i cant wait to get up to maine, but i dont want to work at the soda fountain. o well.. at least i work with friends... and to top it off, i miss casey so god damn much. i have to plan a visit sometime soon. i just dont feel healthy right now. im not eating well, and my sleeping schedule is all out of wack. i wake up early, but decide not to get up because i have nothing to do. so i sleep late, then get up.. watch tv for a few hours, shower, do somethinga roudn the house on my moms list that she gives every morning.. i hate it. the kitchen does not need to be cleaned every day. i should not have to do her banking just because she wants me to do something that day. then i cant sleep at night so im drawing or doing something until like 3 in the morning. im feel on edge too. the only thing keeping me sane right now is friends, my music, and oddly enough, guitar hero. i just feel like the littlest things are getting me frustrated and sad. like even just right now, i accidently hit a button and my computer froze up for like a second and i freaked out.. granted this computer is really slow and old, but still.. come on jess, get a grip. i think i just need to make plans with friends.. but they all work during the day. i just need to get up to maine so i can surf this weekend, there should be some waves coming in, and i can try out my new ripcurl wetsuit (birthdya present from casey!!) its awesome. apparently you're not supposed to get a cold rush of water down your neck in a wetsuit, like my old one. alright enough venting for now.. i would vent to case on the phone but my god damn phone doesnt have service in my house, which it used to, so im not really sure what happened, ill have full service then none in one second.. and thats probably the start of all this frustration and anger. all done.
i need some fruit

also i bought a new cd and i love it.. angels and airwaves. get it.

its 6/6/06 .. definately seeing the omen tonight.. and i really hope that someone who has a baby today names it damien.. that would be awesome