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im so happy i got some andrew time. i love halloween and dressing up. i dont like millions of people stuffed in a room where the air is practically only smoke. i do like dancing. i love knowing that my best friends from home can get along with my new friends. i love knowing that they approve of my friends here. i love just hanging out with people that make me laugh. i think a certain person whos name starts with the letter S would make a great couple with another certain person whos name starts with the letter E. it would make me so happy to see that.
"how long, how long must we sing this song." -u2
Im so happy that i find humor in my life. i dont know what id do with out it. but no matter how much i think ive accomplished in the past few years, i do have problems with feelings. maybe its just that things are happening that have never really been an issue for me before, mostly due to outside influences and the fact that im not typically a fan of how if could effect people. or maybe its just due to the fact that i dont want things to change and i know it all depends on my reactions, whether it will change or not. or maybe i havnt learned at all and im doing the same thing i did 2 years ago and just pushed it in the back of my mind and denied it. it would be nice if i had feelings. it would be nice to know id be able to voice them if i did. i dont think its that i dont have feelings.. i just think theyr just hidden. well hmm i dont know.. these are just experiences that will effect me, as they would anyone else, and theyll effect how i act later on maybe, instead of me voicing the hidden feelings. maybe my feelings will just be played out in actions... i dont really know how i work yet...
How am i supposed to figure out the world if i havent even figure myself out yet?
but if i ever do figure out myself, i'll be sure to let me know.
thank you. my venting session is now completed.
"how long, how long must we sing this song." -u2
Im so happy that i find humor in my life. i dont know what id do with out it. but no matter how much i think ive accomplished in the past few years, i do have problems with feelings. maybe its just that things are happening that have never really been an issue for me before, mostly due to outside influences and the fact that im not typically a fan of how if could effect people. or maybe its just due to the fact that i dont want things to change and i know it all depends on my reactions, whether it will change or not. or maybe i havnt learned at all and im doing the same thing i did 2 years ago and just pushed it in the back of my mind and denied it. it would be nice if i had feelings. it would be nice to know id be able to voice them if i did. i dont think its that i dont have feelings.. i just think theyr just hidden. well hmm i dont know.. these are just experiences that will effect me, as they would anyone else, and theyll effect how i act later on maybe, instead of me voicing the hidden feelings. maybe my feelings will just be played out in actions... i dont really know how i work yet...
How am i supposed to figure out the world if i havent even figure myself out yet?
but if i ever do figure out myself, i'll be sure to let me know.
thank you. my venting session is now completed.