OH GOD, OH GOD
I've been doing A LOT of thinking these past few days. But it seems I've ended up confusing myself more instead of setting things straight. Maybe I realized that Medicine really isn't for me... I'm not that emotionally stable to be able to cope with situations that I will unavoidably run into as a doctor, nor will I be able to stand not being able to travel the world as I please as I would with more flexible jobs. I felt incredibly relieved when I learned that I didn't end up getting that scholarship I was waiting for, as that would be such a waste. Maybe I could try again next year for Modern Languages and see if I can get it. There's less competition for it there so I might be lucky.
MY RELIEF DIDN'T LAST TOO MUCH THOUGH. Apparently, I did win another scholarship on another university I'm not that interested in. I sort of just signed up just in case. It covers my whole tuition fee and gives me financial aid for books and transport and stuff... I feel like I shouldn't turn it down... but I don't want Medicine anymore... and I'm not sure of what they'll think if I just show up all "LOL HAI, Thank you for the scholarship you give to only one student in the whole year and everyone wants, but can I, like, change it for another career or, like, not take it at all?" Yeeeah, no.
That... and I don't think they have Modern Languages and now I'm all panicky because I have to either call or somehow make it to the interview on time, the interview that they've postponed three times and that I have not gone to. They've also seemed to be calling me a lot but we just discovered that the house phone line doesn't work. OTLOTLOTLOTLOTL
I'm still unsure of what I'll do next year on my free semester (That is if I do get it, because with all these university application/scholarship/career change mess I'm not sure what I'll do). I really wanted to go to those Norwegian Folk High Schools, just to do things I like without being worried about being graded, learn Norwegian and just doing what I want, but it's too expensive and I found out about them too late to apply for a scholarship they offered for international students. My safest bet right now is to take up intensive French classes on the first semester, get a spot on a university, postpone for another semester and go to France two or three months to put it on practice/get away from here for a bit. But we're not too positive on this one.
I guess I'm just too optimistic for my own good. This'll probably just end with a very sad and dissapointed me and all the hours I'd spent researching all of this would have been useless.
It doesn't help that my parents want me to take another course along with Modern Languages as they think I will not be fully successful just being a translator and interpreter, even if some can find well paying jobs. I guess I wouldn't mind taking something else, but not right now, maybe when I'm more grown up and have a clear idea on what I want to focus on, it's not like there's an age limit to study, and hell, my mom should know that, she's 39 and just finishing her Psychology degree.
Man, this post is all over the place. Just like my thoughts.
Awesome.
/sob
MY RELIEF DIDN'T LAST TOO MUCH THOUGH. Apparently, I did win another scholarship on another university I'm not that interested in. I sort of just signed up just in case. It covers my whole tuition fee and gives me financial aid for books and transport and stuff... I feel like I shouldn't turn it down... but I don't want Medicine anymore... and I'm not sure of what they'll think if I just show up all "LOL HAI, Thank you for the scholarship you give to only one student in the whole year and everyone wants, but can I, like, change it for another career or, like, not take it at all?" Yeeeah, no.
That... and I don't think they have Modern Languages and now I'm all panicky because I have to either call or somehow make it to the interview on time, the interview that they've postponed three times and that I have not gone to. They've also seemed to be calling me a lot but we just discovered that the house phone line doesn't work. OTLOTLOTLOTLOTL
I'm still unsure of what I'll do next year on my free semester (That is if I do get it, because with all these university application/scholarship/career change mess I'm not sure what I'll do). I really wanted to go to those Norwegian Folk High Schools, just to do things I like without being worried about being graded, learn Norwegian and just doing what I want, but it's too expensive and I found out about them too late to apply for a scholarship they offered for international students. My safest bet right now is to take up intensive French classes on the first semester, get a spot on a university, postpone for another semester and go to France two or three months to put it on practice/get away from here for a bit. But we're not too positive on this one.
I guess I'm just too optimistic for my own good. This'll probably just end with a very sad and dissapointed me and all the hours I'd spent researching all of this would have been useless.
It doesn't help that my parents want me to take another course along with Modern Languages as they think I will not be fully successful just being a translator and interpreter, even if some can find well paying jobs. I guess I wouldn't mind taking something else, but not right now, maybe when I'm more grown up and have a clear idea on what I want to focus on, it's not like there's an age limit to study, and hell, my mom should know that, she's 39 and just finishing her Psychology degree.
Man, this post is all over the place. Just like my thoughts.
Awesome.
/sob