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I'm not really going to update because nothing extreme has happened until last night. I lied to everyone I know just to see the person I love. Should be loved, but no, I love him. I don't know what to do. I want him back and everything inside me other than my heart and everyone in my life says its wrong. So how come I can not let it go?
I look at him still...and I get this heaviness in my chest. I can't breathe because I am so fuckin over taken by the love I feel.
I need help.
I need to find peace, serenity, sanity, something.
I can't verbalize how much I love him, and I pushed him away and blew him off and threw the memories as far away from as possible, but just one look and touch and I feel it as if it is brand new, even after the years of hurt and anguish.
Yeah, song that is making me cry like a baby right now...
The Flame
Cheap Trick
Another night slowly closes in
And I feel so lonely
Touching heat freezing on my skin
I pretend you still hold me
I'm going crazy I'm losing sleep I'm in too far
I'm in way too deep over you
-->I can't believe you're gone <--
-->You were the first you'll be the last<--
Wherever you go
I'll be with you
Whatever you want
I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon
Remember after the fire
After all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame
Watching shadows move across the wall
Feels so frightening
I wanna run to you I wanna call
But I've been hit by lightning
Just can't stand up for falling apart
Can't see through this veil
Across my heart over you
You'll always be the one
You were the first
You'll be the last
Wherever you go
I'll be with you
Whatever you want
I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon
Remember after the fire
After all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame
I'm going crazy
I'm losing sleep
I'm in way too deep over you
You'll always be the one
You were the first
You'll be the last
Wherever you go
I'll be with you
Whatever you want
I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon
Remember after the fire
After all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame
I look at him still...and I get this heaviness in my chest. I can't breathe because I am so fuckin over taken by the love I feel.
I need help.
I need to find peace, serenity, sanity, something.
I can't verbalize how much I love him, and I pushed him away and blew him off and threw the memories as far away from as possible, but just one look and touch and I feel it as if it is brand new, even after the years of hurt and anguish.
Yeah, song that is making me cry like a baby right now...
The Flame
Cheap Trick
Another night slowly closes in
And I feel so lonely
Touching heat freezing on my skin
I pretend you still hold me
I'm going crazy I'm losing sleep I'm in too far
I'm in way too deep over you
-->I can't believe you're gone <--
-->You were the first you'll be the last<--
Wherever you go
I'll be with you
Whatever you want
I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon
Remember after the fire
After all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame
Watching shadows move across the wall
Feels so frightening
I wanna run to you I wanna call
But I've been hit by lightning
Just can't stand up for falling apart
Can't see through this veil
Across my heart over you
You'll always be the one
You were the first
You'll be the last
Wherever you go
I'll be with you
Whatever you want
I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon
Remember after the fire
After all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame
I'm going crazy
I'm losing sleep
I'm in way too deep over you
You'll always be the one
You were the first
You'll be the last
Wherever you go
I'll be with you
Whatever you want
I'll give it to you
Whenever you need someone
To lay your heart and head upon
Remember after the fire
After all the rain
I will be the flame
I will be the flame