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Ok..Wow. So much has happened in a couple of hours.
Kyle..
We met up and talked and he was saying how he thinks there is more to why I did what I did then I said. Yeah well there is but I wont let him know that. I don't know we are still friends, everything is decent.
MY EX BOYFRIED ( THE EX BOYFRIEND A.K.A FIRST LOVE, EVERYTHING TO ME BLAH BLAH BLAH)
He called me. And he restricted the number, so I answer and he was like "Hey its me dont hang up please please please" But I was with Kyle at the moment and I'm like "Listen now isn't a good time I can't talk to you.." and hung up before he could say anything. So I go home and I'm sitting there contemplating whether or not I should call back and he calls. So like a dumbass I answer. Oh but it gets better...
He started telling me how he was on his way to rehab and thanking me for everything that I ever said to him and the way I always loved him because it made him want to change his life. Then he was like remember when I said I was going to marry you? I'm like yeah I remember, I did have a ring ya know, and hes like well I still plan on it.
I told him I can't forget everything that he did to me and that it isnt that easy. Then it progressed into him telling me how much he wants to see me and that he misses me and that he is a better person now. Makes me think. Wonder. Could things ever be good between us again? I loved him more then anything in this world, he was everything to me in a multitude of ways. When we broke up I felt like my entire life was over. I don't know if I could do that again. Its scary. Then its like we have been broken up for a year and a month already..do I really still want to be with him at all?? This is crazy that I am even contemplating any of this. I mean seriously, the kid fuckin killed everything inside of me, made me turn into a bitter bitch. Damnit.
BTW...SHH...I SMOKED A LIL POT LAST NITE. LOL..
Kyle..
We met up and talked and he was saying how he thinks there is more to why I did what I did then I said. Yeah well there is but I wont let him know that. I don't know we are still friends, everything is decent.
MY EX BOYFRIED ( THE EX BOYFRIEND A.K.A FIRST LOVE, EVERYTHING TO ME BLAH BLAH BLAH)
He called me. And he restricted the number, so I answer and he was like "Hey its me dont hang up please please please" But I was with Kyle at the moment and I'm like "Listen now isn't a good time I can't talk to you.." and hung up before he could say anything. So I go home and I'm sitting there contemplating whether or not I should call back and he calls. So like a dumbass I answer. Oh but it gets better...
He started telling me how he was on his way to rehab and thanking me for everything that I ever said to him and the way I always loved him because it made him want to change his life. Then he was like remember when I said I was going to marry you? I'm like yeah I remember, I did have a ring ya know, and hes like well I still plan on it.
I told him I can't forget everything that he did to me and that it isnt that easy. Then it progressed into him telling me how much he wants to see me and that he misses me and that he is a better person now. Makes me think. Wonder. Could things ever be good between us again? I loved him more then anything in this world, he was everything to me in a multitude of ways. When we broke up I felt like my entire life was over. I don't know if I could do that again. Its scary. Then its like we have been broken up for a year and a month already..do I really still want to be with him at all?? This is crazy that I am even contemplating any of this. I mean seriously, the kid fuckin killed everything inside of me, made me turn into a bitter bitch. Damnit.
BTW...SHH...I SMOKED A LIL POT LAST NITE. LOL..