Self Control
Before I even start, I am sooo dedicating a chapter of my fanfic to this sentiment.
When your loved one limits your actions to two choices: slow suffering with potential hysterics that probably will only serve to postpone the solution, and an acute silent suffering that throws both the pain inflicter and the victim into a situation that must be resolved in order to resume daily activities...
When the road of slow suffering has been taken multiple times and the pathetic experience taught you that this road leads nowhere good...
When you bravely choose the path of the painful silence, of pretense pride, of sealed boiling anger, and try to avoid being yourself, while emitting cold suffocating fumes of fury and humiliation...
When you force yourself to torture yourself just in order to make your loved one see what he heard but didn't listen to...
The world becomes a pretty pessimistic place, and silly thoughts of solitude and complete independence creep into your distracted mind.
Why do you force me to protect myself against you when I love you? Why do you make me consider a life apart from you?
People tend to stay away from those who do not respect them enough. What makes you think that I will act any different?
You think that because I love you, you can humiliate and offend me? Your are horrifically mistaken.
Hurry up and understand before my patience runs out. I cannot be the only one gluing us together. And once I lose hope, even though I love you and you love me back, even though right now everything is perfect, it will not be difficult to let you go.
Do no make me unhappy.
When your loved one limits your actions to two choices: slow suffering with potential hysterics that probably will only serve to postpone the solution, and an acute silent suffering that throws both the pain inflicter and the victim into a situation that must be resolved in order to resume daily activities...
When the road of slow suffering has been taken multiple times and the pathetic experience taught you that this road leads nowhere good...
When you bravely choose the path of the painful silence, of pretense pride, of sealed boiling anger, and try to avoid being yourself, while emitting cold suffocating fumes of fury and humiliation...
When you force yourself to torture yourself just in order to make your loved one see what he heard but didn't listen to...
The world becomes a pretty pessimistic place, and silly thoughts of solitude and complete independence creep into your distracted mind.
Why do you force me to protect myself against you when I love you? Why do you make me consider a life apart from you?
People tend to stay away from those who do not respect them enough. What makes you think that I will act any different?
You think that because I love you, you can humiliate and offend me? Your are horrifically mistaken.
Hurry up and understand before my patience runs out. I cannot be the only one gluing us together. And once I lose hope, even though I love you and you love me back, even though right now everything is perfect, it will not be difficult to let you go.
Do no make me unhappy.