Weekend update
Well let me take some time to update my LJ peeps.
1. I miss my laptop. Its fan broke so its at some place in IL getting fixed. Est. return date is June 30. :(
2. My daddy found the need to bring my mom and I to a buffet on Thursday. I did well, i did not eat with my WW points at all because i was at a buffet. Instead i used portion control. I hope i have not killed my self in weight this week.
3. Today we celebrated my PawPaws 66th birthday. Now I have mixed feelings about this. My younger sister (18) does not live with my parents anymore. So she moved in with my moms parents. Well for mothers day my mom signed my MawMaws card MiMi (my nickname), hers, and my dad. This morning we got a lecture from my MawMaw before going to her house that my pawpaw felt that my mom leaving my sisters name off the card was stupid, and he felt that we have disowned her, and have forgotten she is part of our family. What really makes me upset, is that she beat me, emotionally, physically, and mentally. I have hated her for years for what she did to me. I have medical issues that are her fault because she would beat me. She isn't allowed to live her because she hurt me bad enough last year in Nov. So today I am emotionally broke. I can not stand that they take up for her when i was the one in the ER all the time because SHE BEATED ME! It makes me sick, i never provoked her, i never hit back because i knew it was wrong. My only regret is not beating her ass to let her know i was not going to take it.
4. My WW week is shot to hell. It really has not been that bad. I just am eating more sweets in my points because of the emotional stuff this week. I hope i weigh in ok on Tuesday. The scale said 183 this morning, and i went in my room and cried HAPPY tears. That's the lowest the scale has gone for me in years.
5. I go back to the OB/GYN on July 16 to test my blood levels again, and to weigh in for her. (She is the Dr. that ran all the test on me for the insulin problems.) I hope that I can lose 15 more lbs so I am able to have my insulin levels checked again. I hope that I am back to some what normal then.
6. Its summer, and there are vacations coming up that require swimsuits. EGH I hate Louisiana for being so damn hot and humid. I hate the fact to stay cool u have to wear shorts and tank tops. Darn summer in LA!!!
7. Last but not least I am freaking out over my daddy. He quit smoking after he had his stroke last year at 51 years old. A few weeks ago he started again. I want him to quit and we have talked about it. I just don't want my daddy to die because of him being stressed and smoking. I almost lost my mom 7 years ago and that was hard enough.
I'm sorry this post is sooo whiney but i just dont know what else to do or say. I hope I get that job at blockbuster. I call on Tuesday to talk to the manager. I was basically promised it as long as my back ground check was ok. Unless i am a victim of id theft i will be ok. Grr I need to sleep and its storming so I'm off to get some much needed rest.
1. I miss my laptop. Its fan broke so its at some place in IL getting fixed. Est. return date is June 30. :(
2. My daddy found the need to bring my mom and I to a buffet on Thursday. I did well, i did not eat with my WW points at all because i was at a buffet. Instead i used portion control. I hope i have not killed my self in weight this week.
3. Today we celebrated my PawPaws 66th birthday. Now I have mixed feelings about this. My younger sister (18) does not live with my parents anymore. So she moved in with my moms parents. Well for mothers day my mom signed my MawMaws card MiMi (my nickname), hers, and my dad. This morning we got a lecture from my MawMaw before going to her house that my pawpaw felt that my mom leaving my sisters name off the card was stupid, and he felt that we have disowned her, and have forgotten she is part of our family. What really makes me upset, is that she beat me, emotionally, physically, and mentally. I have hated her for years for what she did to me. I have medical issues that are her fault because she would beat me. She isn't allowed to live her because she hurt me bad enough last year in Nov. So today I am emotionally broke. I can not stand that they take up for her when i was the one in the ER all the time because SHE BEATED ME! It makes me sick, i never provoked her, i never hit back because i knew it was wrong. My only regret is not beating her ass to let her know i was not going to take it.
4. My WW week is shot to hell. It really has not been that bad. I just am eating more sweets in my points because of the emotional stuff this week. I hope i weigh in ok on Tuesday. The scale said 183 this morning, and i went in my room and cried HAPPY tears. That's the lowest the scale has gone for me in years.
5. I go back to the OB/GYN on July 16 to test my blood levels again, and to weigh in for her. (She is the Dr. that ran all the test on me for the insulin problems.) I hope that I can lose 15 more lbs so I am able to have my insulin levels checked again. I hope that I am back to some what normal then.
6. Its summer, and there are vacations coming up that require swimsuits. EGH I hate Louisiana for being so damn hot and humid. I hate the fact to stay cool u have to wear shorts and tank tops. Darn summer in LA!!!
7. Last but not least I am freaking out over my daddy. He quit smoking after he had his stroke last year at 51 years old. A few weeks ago he started again. I want him to quit and we have talked about it. I just don't want my daddy to die because of him being stressed and smoking. I almost lost my mom 7 years ago and that was hard enough.
I'm sorry this post is sooo whiney but i just dont know what else to do or say. I hope I get that job at blockbuster. I call on Tuesday to talk to the manager. I was basically promised it as long as my back ground check was ok. Unless i am a victim of id theft i will be ok. Grr I need to sleep and its storming so I'm off to get some much needed rest.