Ok the results of my blood test are in.....
Ok so this is going to be a really not too great entry. IF you don’t want to hear it then just close IE.
Well I have been running away from the world since I got back from the doctor on Friday. I was informed that I am IR. IR is known as insulin resistant. (Insulin resistance occurs when the normal amount of insulin secreted by the pancreas is not able to unlock the door to cells. To maintain a normal blood glucose, the pancreas secretes additional insulin. In some cases (about 1/3 of the people with insulin resistance), when the body cells resist or do not respond to even high levels of insulin, glucose builds up in the blood resulting in high blood glucose or type 2 diabetes. Even people with diabetes who take oral medication or require insulin injections to control their blood glucose levels can have higher than normal blood insulin levels due to insulin resistance.)
Apparently I have this condition because I am not healthy. They said its not because I'm over weight, because my no means am I obese. They told me I am barely over the weight limit for a person my age and height. Anyway, I must lose 20 lbs, my doctor said anything over 20 is a blessing. Because I am IR I will have a really hard time trying to lose weight because my body will consistently be hungry from the over production of insulin. My life stopped when my doctor told me Friday afternoon. I just started to cry, and be very hard on my self. I have step-family on my mom's side of the family that has diabetes, a 4 year old. My four year old cousin that is the most adorable little girl has this horrible disease. I watch her suffer, my mom watched her grandpa suffer, and now I am threatened with it. I'm only 20 years old, ok so I know that I'm not invincible, and shit happens but my god I'M ONLY 20!! I cried over the weekend and yesterday, but today I have accepted it. My medicines are changed, my BC is going to be a different form, and I promise you don't want to know because I'm totally baffled as to why I'm even going to TRY to use my new BC. I have to take tons of vitamins now, and this is just all crazy. Last week at this time I was acting like a normal 20 year old, but inside my body I was setting my self up to be diabetic. TO ALL MY FRIENDS::::: Please keep this in mind if you ever ask me to go out or something. I can't drink any type of alcohol until I lose my weight, it so sucks but I do not want to develop diabetes. I can not eat allot of things anymore. I have to be VERY careful what foods I eat. I'm scared, I'm upset, but I can not control these things. I'm mad at myself for just getting a little bit over weight. My doctor does promise that once I lose the 20 lbs I will probably go back to being normal and healthy BUT there will be a higher risk of me getting diabetes and stuff when I am older and decide to have kids. It's all scary, and Josh has been just as scared as I am. Well I'm done being upset, this is the last time I will be upset over this,probably not, but I just wanted to let people know without having to tell people face to face because all I will do is cry.
This entry is so all over the place but I do not care. I don’t want to read back over it.
Well I have been running away from the world since I got back from the doctor on Friday. I was informed that I am IR. IR is known as insulin resistant. (Insulin resistance occurs when the normal amount of insulin secreted by the pancreas is not able to unlock the door to cells. To maintain a normal blood glucose, the pancreas secretes additional insulin. In some cases (about 1/3 of the people with insulin resistance), when the body cells resist or do not respond to even high levels of insulin, glucose builds up in the blood resulting in high blood glucose or type 2 diabetes. Even people with diabetes who take oral medication or require insulin injections to control their blood glucose levels can have higher than normal blood insulin levels due to insulin resistance.)
Apparently I have this condition because I am not healthy. They said its not because I'm over weight, because my no means am I obese. They told me I am barely over the weight limit for a person my age and height. Anyway, I must lose 20 lbs, my doctor said anything over 20 is a blessing. Because I am IR I will have a really hard time trying to lose weight because my body will consistently be hungry from the over production of insulin. My life stopped when my doctor told me Friday afternoon. I just started to cry, and be very hard on my self. I have step-family on my mom's side of the family that has diabetes, a 4 year old. My four year old cousin that is the most adorable little girl has this horrible disease. I watch her suffer, my mom watched her grandpa suffer, and now I am threatened with it. I'm only 20 years old, ok so I know that I'm not invincible, and shit happens but my god I'M ONLY 20!! I cried over the weekend and yesterday, but today I have accepted it. My medicines are changed, my BC is going to be a different form, and I promise you don't want to know because I'm totally baffled as to why I'm even going to TRY to use my new BC. I have to take tons of vitamins now, and this is just all crazy. Last week at this time I was acting like a normal 20 year old, but inside my body I was setting my self up to be diabetic. TO ALL MY FRIENDS::::: Please keep this in mind if you ever ask me to go out or something. I can't drink any type of alcohol until I lose my weight, it so sucks but I do not want to develop diabetes. I can not eat allot of things anymore. I have to be VERY careful what foods I eat. I'm scared, I'm upset, but I can not control these things. I'm mad at myself for just getting a little bit over weight. My doctor does promise that once I lose the 20 lbs I will probably go back to being normal and healthy BUT there will be a higher risk of me getting diabetes and stuff when I am older and decide to have kids. It's all scary, and Josh has been just as scared as I am. Well I'm done being upset, this is the last time I will be upset over this,probably not, but I just wanted to let people know without having to tell people face to face because all I will do is cry.
This entry is so all over the place but I do not care. I don’t want to read back over it.