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How am I supposed to be friends with people here? All they do is stab you in the back. Friday, told Theresa I wanted to go out and she told me she'd call me when she found a ride......she never called me and then yesterday tried to explain to me that there was no extra room in the car for me anyway...like thats supposed to make me feel better. So then I tell Allison and Kelly that I want to go out saturday nite. Allison tells me she'll call me.......that never happened. So this weekend I sat in my room with my three roomates and watched half a dozen movies on TNT and TBS and now I want to cry even more. They hate me, they must because the fact that my presence here pisses them off or the fact that they believe my existence is so miniscule that they dont ask me to go to breakfast with them. It sounds stupid I know but when I moved in here I felt so alone and I met them and I thought they were really nice and that I'd fit in. Well I do fit in and I dont fit in because as much as I try to, I'm never really there. I've even talked to them about and they realize that I'm upset and say that their sorry and that its nobig deal but they dont change. I'm hurt...and thats the part that sucks. I'm just alone here, the friends I thought I had are the fair weather type and it just sucks because now my face is all red from crying.