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my third summer getting ready to go back to berea and somehow this is the worst yet. last year was both one of the best and one of the hardest years of my life. (it's got nothin on 6.) and so, i know what i'm going back to. partially. today's like a reality check because it isn't going to be the same as when we left in may. (this summer is a little blip in the course of berea time, an oasis, a paradise i'll never forget...) and yes, things were rough in may, but they still made sense. and i'm afraid that now they won't even make sense and i'll be left standing in a parking lot looking dumbfounded wondering why you left me and knowing that even if i HAD done things better, i'd still be alone.
and so i've got so much to look forward to. new challenges in my prenursing career (lol), new residents, new job, new staffmembers, new people to meet, new friends to make, new adventures...and still everything that i love, the park and food and slumber parties and knitting and football and tlc surgery shows and hopefully lots and LOTS of karaoke and all of it all of it but one. and maybe that one will never come back. and that thought overshadows all the rest and all i want to do is stay in my bed in rock hill and hate my new phone.
but really, i can't hate it for ever. peace yall.
and so i've got so much to look forward to. new challenges in my prenursing career (lol), new residents, new job, new staffmembers, new people to meet, new friends to make, new adventures...and still everything that i love, the park and food and slumber parties and knitting and football and tlc surgery shows and hopefully lots and LOTS of karaoke and all of it all of it but one. and maybe that one will never come back. and that thought overshadows all the rest and all i want to do is stay in my bed in rock hill and hate my new phone.
but really, i can't hate it for ever. peace yall.