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[mimi_babi_love]

hey everyone! last night was cool. the eternal cry servise was great. anyways~

it was good to see everyone. shannon your hair looks awsome by the way. i love it. and i was happy that i got to see all of you. oh yeah hi ron. you told me to say hi so i am. i was so happy to see you. you and cindy look great. and the last skit i seen was good too. it really touched me b/c latly i have been thinking about suiside. my life has been so horrible latly. and i just dont know what to do. i just feel so ugly and stupid. and i just hate myself. and its hard to live anymore. and last night you guys said all the things that i have been going through and thats why i wasnt really all that social. b/c its was hard for me to be there. and i fell bad b/c truthfully i was kinda on a pill last night. i took it b/c i wasnt to stay calm. i didnt know what it was called but i knew it was an anti-depressant. and i didnt want to just flip out. so i took it. but it just made me feel even worse. it made me feel guilty. and i am sorry.

i gotta go ill talk more later.
love amy~