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oh my god.
when i was about 8 or 9 years old i had this friend. his name was kenneth scoggin. and well we were best friends ever time he was at his moms house we would be together, if u found kenneth you found me. and i know people said that u cant fall in love that young but i was in LOVE w/ that boi. we used to have so much fun together and he was my life, and i would still die for him. and well one day we got in this huge fight. i know it probably wasnt much b/c we were only 10 years old but after that fight we never spoke again. and it has now been a little over 7 years now since we've talked. yeah thats how mad i was at him. mad enough at him that i didnt ever talk to him again. but i was still in love w/ him. and one time when i was in 6th grade he was in 7 {b/c i failed 3 grade} and krine was at my house and i hate kenneths # wrote on my wall b/c a few times i tried to call him but i would hang up b/c the call would go through. and well krine disided that she wanted to call him. and so she dialed the # and asked for him and she was gonna say she was me and as soon as he said hello, she said is this kenneth? and he said yes and she freaked out b/c he sounded like a grown man and she trew the phone to me so i had no choice but to talk. and i asked him if he remembered me and i told him who it was and he said yes. and i didnt know what to say b/c we hadent talked for 4 years. and so i said, "i just called to apoligize about that figh we got in a couple years ago." lol. i know gay right? and he said okay and so i said that i was gonna go and id see him around. and the next day at school i seen him and i almost went up to him to talk to him and i paniced and so i kept walking but i never took my eyes off of him. and i was walking down the hall looking back at him and i just wanted to go and talk to him so bad. and he looked like he wanted to talk to me too b/c the whole time i wasnt taking my eyes off him he wasnt taking his eyes off me either. and i just couldnt talk to him{i have a point to this story i promise}.
i dont know why i just couldnt. and i was still in love w/ him and i always thought about him. and thats when my depression started. i missed him so much i was "love-sick" is one way to put it. and i just started to get really quite when i seen him and one minute i was really happy joking around w/ my friends and something would happen where i would be reminded about him and i would just get quite and i would get really sad. and this was an everyday thing for me. and taht when i first started getting depressed. and i still think about him all the time and i seen him for the first time in over a year.
i was at KFC with my gurl anna and he walked in. which as soon as i seen him my heart started racing. and i actually got enough balls to say hi. and he said hi back. and he went into the bathroom. and when i came back out i said, "do u even remember me?" and he said, "yes i do amy." and just hearing him say my name made me want to cry. but a good cry. and well he went to the counter w/ his mom. and i finished my cigerett and went up there. and i said, "u know u missed me kenneth." and he got that smile. ohmy god that beautiful smile. ive waited 7 years to see that amile again. and he just looked me over and i just couldnt help but have this big ass grin on my face. and i said, "its been years since we've talked. isnt it like 7 or 8 years?" and he was still smiling and he said, "somewhere around there." and i said, "i heard u have a new gurlfriend?" and i said, "its pretty creepy that i know all this stuff and we havent even spoke for years huh? but i know this b/c im friend w/ coty." we talked for few more minutes and then i said, "welp i can see your about to leave so ill see ya around." and went back to to the smoking area and he was walking out and i said, "by kenneth." in this cocky sexi voice and he looked over at me and said, "by amy, i see ya later." and he smiled at me one last time and walked out.
and i just watched him walk out. and i was so happy. i just wanted to cry. nobody can even understand how much i was in love w/ him and how much i missed him. i would do anything to have him back, even if we were just friends it would be just perfect for me.
and damn is he fine as hell. hehe i had to add that.
love~amy
when i was about 8 or 9 years old i had this friend. his name was kenneth scoggin. and well we were best friends ever time he was at his moms house we would be together, if u found kenneth you found me. and i know people said that u cant fall in love that young but i was in LOVE w/ that boi. we used to have so much fun together and he was my life, and i would still die for him. and well one day we got in this huge fight. i know it probably wasnt much b/c we were only 10 years old but after that fight we never spoke again. and it has now been a little over 7 years now since we've talked. yeah thats how mad i was at him. mad enough at him that i didnt ever talk to him again. but i was still in love w/ him. and one time when i was in 6th grade he was in 7 {b/c i failed 3 grade} and krine was at my house and i hate kenneths # wrote on my wall b/c a few times i tried to call him but i would hang up b/c the call would go through. and well krine disided that she wanted to call him. and so she dialed the # and asked for him and she was gonna say she was me and as soon as he said hello, she said is this kenneth? and he said yes and she freaked out b/c he sounded like a grown man and she trew the phone to me so i had no choice but to talk. and i asked him if he remembered me and i told him who it was and he said yes. and i didnt know what to say b/c we hadent talked for 4 years. and so i said, "i just called to apoligize about that figh we got in a couple years ago." lol. i know gay right? and he said okay and so i said that i was gonna go and id see him around. and the next day at school i seen him and i almost went up to him to talk to him and i paniced and so i kept walking but i never took my eyes off of him. and i was walking down the hall looking back at him and i just wanted to go and talk to him so bad. and he looked like he wanted to talk to me too b/c the whole time i wasnt taking my eyes off him he wasnt taking his eyes off me either. and i just couldnt talk to him{i have a point to this story i promise}.
i dont know why i just couldnt. and i was still in love w/ him and i always thought about him. and thats when my depression started. i missed him so much i was "love-sick" is one way to put it. and i just started to get really quite when i seen him and one minute i was really happy joking around w/ my friends and something would happen where i would be reminded about him and i would just get quite and i would get really sad. and this was an everyday thing for me. and taht when i first started getting depressed. and i still think about him all the time and i seen him for the first time in over a year.
i was at KFC with my gurl anna and he walked in. which as soon as i seen him my heart started racing. and i actually got enough balls to say hi. and he said hi back. and he went into the bathroom. and when i came back out i said, "do u even remember me?" and he said, "yes i do amy." and just hearing him say my name made me want to cry. but a good cry. and well he went to the counter w/ his mom. and i finished my cigerett and went up there. and i said, "u know u missed me kenneth." and he got that smile. ohmy god that beautiful smile. ive waited 7 years to see that amile again. and he just looked me over and i just couldnt help but have this big ass grin on my face. and i said, "its been years since we've talked. isnt it like 7 or 8 years?" and he was still smiling and he said, "somewhere around there." and i said, "i heard u have a new gurlfriend?" and i said, "its pretty creepy that i know all this stuff and we havent even spoke for years huh? but i know this b/c im friend w/ coty." we talked for few more minutes and then i said, "welp i can see your about to leave so ill see ya around." and went back to to the smoking area and he was walking out and i said, "by kenneth." in this cocky sexi voice and he looked over at me and said, "by amy, i see ya later." and he smiled at me one last time and walked out.
and i just watched him walk out. and i was so happy. i just wanted to cry. nobody can even understand how much i was in love w/ him and how much i missed him. i would do anything to have him back, even if we were just friends it would be just perfect for me.
and damn is he fine as hell. hehe i had to add that.
love~amy