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it has been an extremely long month. the saddest part is that it isn't even over.
I HAVE FIGURED THIS OUT.
*my brother is a fuck up and my parents don't wanna believe it.
*i am sick of being the child who does everything and isn't trusted.
*i am transferring to UCF by summer session 06.
*FAU is the opposite of a "college experience".
*i work far too much.
*my sister just turned 2 and she doesn't even know who i am. it makes me want to cry.
*my mom thinks all i do is drink and have sex when i am out. so far from the truth.
*i miss my friends who went away to college way to much.
ON A GOOD NOTE.
*my birthday is soon. i will be 19.
*my mom and gordon are getting married soon.
*i will be in louisiana with my best friend in 3 weeks.
*i get to see my daddy.
*UF was amazing.
*despite how little we talk, sade is really a true friend.
WHY..
*can't i eat more healthy?
*can't i talk to my mom?
*is it that i can't show my feelings to people?
*am i more depressed than i seem?
can anyone help me?