:-)
Everything is so nice here right now. When I go hiking, I can see the ocean all the way past LAX and to Long Beach. It's amazing. Sometimes I can even see the islands. It's such a beautiful view. I went to Santa Monica to go rollerblading today and that was great too. The beach was sunny and warm and beautiful and it was nice to be out among other people exercising and taking advantage of the weather. I love the beach so much, and watching people there is so interesting. I went down past Venice, back up past the pier towards Malibu, and when I was done I went to the Promenade for a little while. I am wearing a t-shirt and flipflops in January. I can't explain what that does for my demeanor.
Anyway, keeping busy as much as possible and trying to ignore the overwhelming anger that's a part of me lately. Sometimes I'm fine, sometimes I'm not. I know it's normal to still feel that way. It just seems so unfair that the person who gets hurt the most is the one who has the harder time recovering too. I'm trying to focus on doing what's right for me and not think about it. It only makes me upset. I am also trying to be open-minded and not feel that all guys at their cores are just the same insensitive assholes...
On the bright side, while I was taking surface streets home during rush hour, I got checked out by a few attractive men...and I looked like shit. That makes me feel a little better.
Anyway, keeping busy as much as possible and trying to ignore the overwhelming anger that's a part of me lately. Sometimes I'm fine, sometimes I'm not. I know it's normal to still feel that way. It just seems so unfair that the person who gets hurt the most is the one who has the harder time recovering too. I'm trying to focus on doing what's right for me and not think about it. It only makes me upset. I am also trying to be open-minded and not feel that all guys at their cores are just the same insensitive assholes...
On the bright side, while I was taking surface streets home during rush hour, I got checked out by a few attractive men...and I looked like shit. That makes me feel a little better.