i'm bringing sexy back........ not
My friend Annalee at work is having a sort of crisis like mine, in a way...she wants to leave LA and she finally told her boyfriend of 3 years that she is going. He has been stalling forever and finally just said he's not ready to leave. It's really sad...not only because I don't want her to leave, but because the two of them love each other and are happy together, but they don't want to be in the same place. I started crying when she told me at work, which I'm sure didn't help matters for her, but I've been hyperemotional today...well, every day lately. It's so strange not to feel like I know who I am anymore. I guess it should be sort of exciting, eh? Scary too. I don't know what she'll do, but I hope she can do whatever makes her most happy. At the same time, like Vickie said, if she's not motivated here she won't be motivated with her career back in Portland either. I was like, yeah, look at me - being in LA doesn't motivate me any more than being in Indiana did. There are lots of things I love about my life out here but I'm not focused on my career at all right now. The bad thing is, if it weren't for all the people asking me about it all the time, I don't know that I would give a shit. I should. I've been looking at a lot of different stuff online lately, trying to figure out what really moves me. I should know, right? I know that this is a time in my life that I am changing and growing, but at the same time I feel like so many people stay primarily the same.
Anyway, I'm trying to figure out when I might come home next, and I'm already excited about my dad and brother coming out to see me. Finally a partner in some of the things I like to do! My poor dad will probably be like, leave me alone...oh well.
Work is okay and I really do like a lot of the people though I've been wound up lately, and they like me too. That's a nice feeling. Too bad the only people who are always telling me how adorable and cute I am are girls...isn't that the way it always goes? Eh, whatever. It doesn't matter because I'm not there at all right now anyway.
Anyway, I'm trying to figure out when I might come home next, and I'm already excited about my dad and brother coming out to see me. Finally a partner in some of the things I like to do! My poor dad will probably be like, leave me alone...oh well.
Work is okay and I really do like a lot of the people though I've been wound up lately, and they like me too. That's a nice feeling. Too bad the only people who are always telling me how adorable and cute I am are girls...isn't that the way it always goes? Eh, whatever. It doesn't matter because I'm not there at all right now anyway.