Hum.
From a Cannon commercial:
"Take a picture with your mind,
Nothings crueler than the passing of time.
Please say you'll stay forever this way"
It's not an actual song, just something I agreed with. I've not yet moved on; maybe I've looked in the wrong place. I hate this so much...
(Gah, I love Thinking Under Moon, but I can't seem to find the lyrics to it.)
Anyway, I havn't updated in awhile, so you all know nothing drastic has happened. And by you all, I mean you, and by you, I mean Ryan, and by Ryan, I mean maybe no one, because I'm not sure anyone still reads this. Hehe, EQ is starting the whole phase of parental hell for me again. It started with me watching regular TV, then when we discovered anime websites on the computer, then when we got the Sims, then when I got a TV in my room, and lastly, when I discovered YSRMB. I expect much heck in the future, I do...especially if EQ becomes the only way in which I can communicate with Ryan...woa, I'll get to that in a bit, yesh.
Anyway, Christmas was fun, but I had less Christmas spirit than even last year, when I slept in Christmas day. Sure,I did the whole ceremonial Lucy-getting-me-up-at-6:00-and-we-go-through-our-stockings-while-watching-dubbed-Sailor Moon-then-dragging-mum-and-pop-outta-bed-and-I-got-another-snowglobe-and-then-we-are-yelled-out-of-bed-the-next-day-and-listen-to-burned-J-Stylings-the-whole-next-day-on-our-way-to-NC-then-we-live-through-a-visit-to-Grandmother-Barbara-while-eating-her-left-out-for-5-days-previous-food-then-watch-CABLE!!!-at-Grandmother-Betty's-and-the-SNL-marathon-was-so-funny-ARG-I-want-Comedy-Central-then-go-in-that-woodsy-type-place-in-Grandmothers-backyard-then-watch-Dick-Clark's-New-Year's-Eve-Special-and-drink-champagne-woo, but, even with all that tradition being played out (or something like that...I can't say things.), it still didn't feel Christmasy.
And back to school. All the student's got their new schedules, and of course, Lunch was crapped up. Ariane was actually the only person who I noticed had left 1st lunch, so David's not skipping his class again. BJ's still there which is fun. And, yes, Ryan's not switched. However, don't be so quick to think I got off easy...the inevidable did in fact happen. Chris switched into 1st. Meaning, yes, Ryan now eats with his other friends. I cannot begin to describe how much hate this whole situation. I love Ryan so much, he is such a wonderful person, and he's helped me in so many ways, but I cannot bring myself to hating Chris; Chris did nothing to me. In fact, he's been a very good friend. He would talk to me. No one does that. He made me feel like he really needed me. Well, post-Christmas break Chris. Now he sports an Asian girlfriend and hangs out with Ariane, David, Erica, the freshmen, the same people he hadn't the best opinion's of the last time I talked to him, instead of BJ, Jafar, erm, David, the people he told me he wanted to break away from, but if he did, he would have nowhere to go, just like me. Still, even though he's changed, I cannot unjustly hate him. I would much, much rather have Ryan in replace of him at lunch, but I would much, much, much rather have Ryan come to terms with his hatred for Chris, and live in peace with him. However, I know the circumstances, and I know this cannot happen. I'm very sorry for any uncomfort me saying this has caused you, Ryan, but I had to get it out. You probably already know how I think, I just elaborated. Damn, I hope this doesn't hurt you. God, I so suck if it does... ><
And so ends my long entry.
Songs listened to while writing:
Gackt- Thinking Under Moon, Another World, Asrun Dream, Birdcage, Dears
Psycho le Cemu- ¬K®L¬î¥V, Genkai Merry-go-Round
Aiko- Boyfriend
Janne da Arc- Eden, Fantasia, Heaven's Place, ICE
Malice Mizer- Illuminati
And now it is proven: I am a slow typer.
"Take a picture with your mind,
Nothings crueler than the passing of time.
Please say you'll stay forever this way"
It's not an actual song, just something I agreed with. I've not yet moved on; maybe I've looked in the wrong place. I hate this so much...
(Gah, I love Thinking Under Moon, but I can't seem to find the lyrics to it.)
Anyway, I havn't updated in awhile, so you all know nothing drastic has happened. And by you all, I mean you, and by you, I mean Ryan, and by Ryan, I mean maybe no one, because I'm not sure anyone still reads this. Hehe, EQ is starting the whole phase of parental hell for me again. It started with me watching regular TV, then when we discovered anime websites on the computer, then when we got the Sims, then when I got a TV in my room, and lastly, when I discovered YSRMB. I expect much heck in the future, I do...especially if EQ becomes the only way in which I can communicate with Ryan...woa, I'll get to that in a bit, yesh.
Anyway, Christmas was fun, but I had less Christmas spirit than even last year, when I slept in Christmas day. Sure,I did the whole ceremonial Lucy-getting-me-up-at-6:00-and-we-go-through-our-stockings-while-watching-dubbed-Sailor Moon-then-dragging-mum-and-pop-outta-bed-and-I-got-another-snowglobe-and-then-we-are-yelled-out-of-bed-the-next-day-and-listen-to-burned-J-Stylings-the-whole-next-day-on-our-way-to-NC-then-we-live-through-a-visit-to-Grandmother-Barbara-while-eating-her-left-out-for-5-days-previous-food-then-watch-CABLE!!!-at-Grandmother-Betty's-and-the-SNL-marathon-was-so-funny-ARG-I-want-Comedy-Central-then-go-in-that-woodsy-type-place-in-Grandmothers-backyard-then-watch-Dick-Clark's-New-Year's-Eve-Special-and-drink-champagne-woo, but, even with all that tradition being played out (or something like that...I can't say things.), it still didn't feel Christmasy.
And back to school. All the student's got their new schedules, and of course, Lunch was crapped up. Ariane was actually the only person who I noticed had left 1st lunch, so David's not skipping his class again. BJ's still there which is fun. And, yes, Ryan's not switched. However, don't be so quick to think I got off easy...the inevidable did in fact happen. Chris switched into 1st. Meaning, yes, Ryan now eats with his other friends. I cannot begin to describe how much hate this whole situation. I love Ryan so much, he is such a wonderful person, and he's helped me in so many ways, but I cannot bring myself to hating Chris; Chris did nothing to me. In fact, he's been a very good friend. He would talk to me. No one does that. He made me feel like he really needed me. Well, post-Christmas break Chris. Now he sports an Asian girlfriend and hangs out with Ariane, David, Erica, the freshmen, the same people he hadn't the best opinion's of the last time I talked to him, instead of BJ, Jafar, erm, David, the people he told me he wanted to break away from, but if he did, he would have nowhere to go, just like me. Still, even though he's changed, I cannot unjustly hate him. I would much, much rather have Ryan in replace of him at lunch, but I would much, much, much rather have Ryan come to terms with his hatred for Chris, and live in peace with him. However, I know the circumstances, and I know this cannot happen. I'm very sorry for any uncomfort me saying this has caused you, Ryan, but I had to get it out. You probably already know how I think, I just elaborated. Damn, I hope this doesn't hurt you. God, I so suck if it does... ><
And so ends my long entry.
Songs listened to while writing:
Gackt- Thinking Under Moon, Another World, Asrun Dream, Birdcage, Dears
Psycho le Cemu- ¬K®L¬î¥V, Genkai Merry-go-Round
Aiko- Boyfriend
Janne da Arc- Eden, Fantasia, Heaven's Place, ICE
Malice Mizer- Illuminati
And now it is proven: I am a slow typer.