Life as you know it won't always be that life.
It's September now. I see that my last entry was in July... so allow me to recap what has been happening in my life. It's a bit long, so I'll just LJ-cut the bad. This is within the last six months:
The Good:
I graduated from the University of California, Santa Cruz. Thanks to all those who congratulated me and I didn't reply, I should have much earlier, but by the time I got around to the comments I thought it might have been too late to say thanks... well, then I changed my mind and wrote the above.
I learned more about hardware. I built a computer from scratch, upgraded drives, memory, flung wires around, changed cpus... ton of stuff. Worked on two other computers too, and made a little extra cash fixing things. I've always been more of a software support (such as installing OS, fixing up issues with programs after they've been installed, troubleshooting, getting rid of viruses, spyware, other malware, etc.) I also did quite a few of that this summer as well.
I played games! Finished off my RO career (god, how many years already...), tried Lord of the Rings Online, Dawn of War, Neverwinter Nights, Scions of Fate, Granado Espada, a bit of Ragnarok Online II, RF Online, Dungeons and Dragons Online. I am still playing Dungeons and Dragons Online; got a character to max level and am trying to max out my favor to unlock 32 point builds. I'm a cleric on Argonnessen (used to be Mabar, but it merged into Mabargonnessen), by the way.
I got first hand on what it's like to GM for a MMO. In all honestly, it was pretty fun. The not so fun part was not getting paid as it was for a private server, and because of that, everyone else thought it was more fun to let me do all the work. The next best thing was getting out of that.
I left a poor situation with my ex. I feel much better now that the stress is gone.
I met the perfect girl. I still think she is nearly completely perfect for me.
I got engaged. It wasn't official completely, but I was going to have plans to have an "official" engagement on Christmas.
I made plans to go to some place I've never been before. Christmas in Japan...!
In my entire life, I was finally truly happy. And I still am happy about that, that I was able to feel that.
I told my father I loved him. It never happens, but I wanted him to know that he has a daughter that loves him very much, and knows that he has tried his best through the years to be the best father he could, even if he is "bad at showing affection."
I made a few more friends, and got closer to one or two of them even though I haven't been around or socializing much. It's no one on LiveJournal, or anything. It is altering my trips a bit from Brazil, Philippines, Vancouver to Brazil, Phillippines, Vancouver, near Edmonton. In no order of course, and I have no idea when I would do any of them, except that the Canadian trips seem much more likely. And Brazil, I think I might make that too, someday...
I don't have to go to jury duty. Yaaaay!
Well, honestly, I am poor at remembering bad things. But I do have to say that the last 5-6 days of my life have been one of the toughest to go through. Ron is also having a hard time as he has to move back home now, and he tried so hard to get out of that house. And the GPA I graduated with isn't exactly high in my mind. I'm supposed to be listing things.
The Bad:
Kaede died in a car accident in August. It was the six happiest months of my life with her. Means I won't be going to Japan any time soon, unless I can find another reason to go... I'd like to see her grave, though... at some point...
I don't have insurance of any kind. Dental, glasses, medical. The only insurance I have is auto. I'm no longer covered since I graduated... which means...
I have to get a job with insurance. But I want to have a vacation... and getting a job won't let me just up and leave to another country if I wanted to visit people for a month. I hated that during school, now I don't have it, but my father warns me that if I don't try to find a job soon enough, companies may wonder why the hell I haven't been employed for some number of months and might assume it's because other companies don't want me.
I've been sleeping too much since finding out. I still lay around at night and think about how I love her, though. I have slept more hours in the last week than I have in a long while... I do think it's nice that I am sleeping and getting rest, but I don't think it's good if I've been sleeping for hours and wake up entirely tired.
There is never food in this house! Just Charliefood, and that consists of macaroni and cheese, pepperoni pizza, cheese slices... well, at least there's Dr. Pepper...
I only finished one commission. I don't think I can work on the others right now... I'm really sorry, but at least I didn't hold anyone's money or anything and the person who paid me got their item first and paid me back already. (Thank you, Anne.)
I lost a number of friends due to inactivity, that I was with someone, drama, etc. Speaks for itself, but thankfully it was about a good 5 or 4 months ago that those things happened and right now I'm not facing any drama with friends. (Which I hope to stay that way!)
Now I wanna know how you're doing! How are any of you?
The Good:
I graduated from the University of California, Santa Cruz. Thanks to all those who congratulated me and I didn't reply, I should have much earlier, but by the time I got around to the comments I thought it might have been too late to say thanks... well, then I changed my mind and wrote the above.
I learned more about hardware. I built a computer from scratch, upgraded drives, memory, flung wires around, changed cpus... ton of stuff. Worked on two other computers too, and made a little extra cash fixing things. I've always been more of a software support (such as installing OS, fixing up issues with programs after they've been installed, troubleshooting, getting rid of viruses, spyware, other malware, etc.) I also did quite a few of that this summer as well.
I played games! Finished off my RO career (god, how many years already...), tried Lord of the Rings Online, Dawn of War, Neverwinter Nights, Scions of Fate, Granado Espada, a bit of Ragnarok Online II, RF Online, Dungeons and Dragons Online. I am still playing Dungeons and Dragons Online; got a character to max level and am trying to max out my favor to unlock 32 point builds. I'm a cleric on Argonnessen (used to be Mabar, but it merged into Mabargonnessen), by the way.
I got first hand on what it's like to GM for a MMO. In all honestly, it was pretty fun. The not so fun part was not getting paid as it was for a private server, and because of that, everyone else thought it was more fun to let me do all the work. The next best thing was getting out of that.
I left a poor situation with my ex. I feel much better now that the stress is gone.
I met the perfect girl. I still think she is nearly completely perfect for me.
I got engaged. It wasn't official completely, but I was going to have plans to have an "official" engagement on Christmas.
I made plans to go to some place I've never been before. Christmas in Japan...!
In my entire life, I was finally truly happy. And I still am happy about that, that I was able to feel that.
I told my father I loved him. It never happens, but I wanted him to know that he has a daughter that loves him very much, and knows that he has tried his best through the years to be the best father he could, even if he is "bad at showing affection."
I made a few more friends, and got closer to one or two of them even though I haven't been around or socializing much. It's no one on LiveJournal, or anything. It is altering my trips a bit from Brazil, Philippines, Vancouver to Brazil, Phillippines, Vancouver, near Edmonton. In no order of course, and I have no idea when I would do any of them, except that the Canadian trips seem much more likely. And Brazil, I think I might make that too, someday...
I don't have to go to jury duty. Yaaaay!
Well, honestly, I am poor at remembering bad things. But I do have to say that the last 5-6 days of my life have been one of the toughest to go through. Ron is also having a hard time as he has to move back home now, and he tried so hard to get out of that house. And the GPA I graduated with isn't exactly high in my mind. I'm supposed to be listing things.
The Bad:
Kaede died in a car accident in August. It was the six happiest months of my life with her. Means I won't be going to Japan any time soon, unless I can find another reason to go... I'd like to see her grave, though... at some point...
I don't have insurance of any kind. Dental, glasses, medical. The only insurance I have is auto. I'm no longer covered since I graduated... which means...
I have to get a job with insurance. But I want to have a vacation... and getting a job won't let me just up and leave to another country if I wanted to visit people for a month. I hated that during school, now I don't have it, but my father warns me that if I don't try to find a job soon enough, companies may wonder why the hell I haven't been employed for some number of months and might assume it's because other companies don't want me.
I've been sleeping too much since finding out. I still lay around at night and think about how I love her, though. I have slept more hours in the last week than I have in a long while... I do think it's nice that I am sleeping and getting rest, but I don't think it's good if I've been sleeping for hours and wake up entirely tired.
There is never food in this house! Just Charliefood, and that consists of macaroni and cheese, pepperoni pizza, cheese slices... well, at least there's Dr. Pepper...
I only finished one commission. I don't think I can work on the others right now... I'm really sorry, but at least I didn't hold anyone's money or anything and the person who paid me got their item first and paid me back already. (Thank you, Anne.)
I lost a number of friends due to inactivity, that I was with someone, drama, etc. Speaks for itself, but thankfully it was about a good 5 or 4 months ago that those things happened and right now I'm not facing any drama with friends. (Which I hope to stay that way!)
Now I wanna know how you're doing! How are any of you?