She loves her friends.
Yesterday night, Elizabeth and Ringo invited me to something. I originally said I would go, as I seemed to be almost in the mood for, but as soon as the time came by, I decided not to go.
Elizabeth was worried, so she said that she'd drop by with some cake (which was what the thing was-- to bake a cake and have general hanging outage)... I told her I'd take a nap, because I was really tired (and hadn't had much sleep at all)...
She called me much later, and dropped by with Ron. They hung around for a bit, before Ron had to leave to do something. I forgot...
Liz stayed around, she took out her reader and read while I read Frankenstein. It was nice to have some company, and during it, we talked a bit. She talked about how she was worried because no one has heard from me recently at all. That I hadn't called anyone, or logged online as often, either. More like, I didn't log on at all. And if I did log in, I didn't say much to people. I logged in my name last night, even though I was studying, and left an away message up, so people knew I was still alive...
She said she was worried that I didn't want to hang out because the last two times they invited me to something (not including last night's) and I've rejected it. I just told her that it wasn't because I didn't want to hang out, it was just I was not in the mood for, and I'd rather not just brood around while everyone was going about their merry ways. I wouldn't want to drag everyone down with me, and I know they worry about me. So, I thought it was better that I just didn't go. Not only that, but I've been terribly busy lately that I couldn't have, anyway.
Elizabeth said that it might have been better for me to try and just do things outside of my room and studio... that being in these few spots might be adding to the fact that I've been feeling really down lately. I told her that we could study together more often-- not only could I stay on task much easier when there's a friend around, but I have been quite lonely. She wants to take me "walking" (since I said 'hiking' sounded too hard) and we're going to find a time to go shopping, hopefully where I can finally get a pair of some nice sweatpants for general wearing... things to get my blood flowing, hopefully I'll start not minding doing things again.
One of my housemates always says that she doesn't know where I am, if I were home or not. I told her it might have been funny if she were to be like, "Oh, what's that smell?" and then realize that I was dead and rotting in my room!!!! She went like... well, this is the perfect emoticon "O_O" and... hahaha. Of course, I'm just kidding, but...
So this weekend is going to a museum, finishing Frankenstein, finishing up my paintings, doing my cast... doing the walk project for 3D foundation. I'm packed this weekend... this week. Midterms and things like that. It's been quite stressing, so I suppose it's understandable that my mood has been so odd lately.
"Saku, you just disappeared, and we all wondered where you were..." "We were worried about you..."
Prior to last night, during the day, Jeffrey IM'ed me about going to College Night in the dining hall, and I figured since I was hungry and I hadn't seen him around, I might as well. It was just me and him, and we talked about a lot of things. College Night was about Black History Month and stuff, you know... where they offer fried chicken, pecan pies, macaroni and cheese, etc? Hahaha. Yeah. The music was much too loud for it's own good, though, it hurt my ears terribly.
Starting from the weekend on, this week has been nice in the way that I've had outside contact than what I've been doing for the past weeks--maybe even month or past that. Otherwise my general mood has been still quite gloomy.
I'm terribly exhausted, thinking of taking a nap, but unsure if I should or not. Class got out early today, which I'm quite thankful for, and I did quite a bit of speaking during it. It was 3D foundation section, and I think most of the class enjoyed it as much as I did... seeing how I treated it like Literature section, I just said a lot of interesting things. The TA seemed more pleased than usual.
Elizabeth was worried, so she said that she'd drop by with some cake (which was what the thing was-- to bake a cake and have general hanging outage)... I told her I'd take a nap, because I was really tired (and hadn't had much sleep at all)...
She called me much later, and dropped by with Ron. They hung around for a bit, before Ron had to leave to do something. I forgot...
Liz stayed around, she took out her reader and read while I read Frankenstein. It was nice to have some company, and during it, we talked a bit. She talked about how she was worried because no one has heard from me recently at all. That I hadn't called anyone, or logged online as often, either. More like, I didn't log on at all. And if I did log in, I didn't say much to people. I logged in my name last night, even though I was studying, and left an away message up, so people knew I was still alive...
She said she was worried that I didn't want to hang out because the last two times they invited me to something (not including last night's) and I've rejected it. I just told her that it wasn't because I didn't want to hang out, it was just I was not in the mood for, and I'd rather not just brood around while everyone was going about their merry ways. I wouldn't want to drag everyone down with me, and I know they worry about me. So, I thought it was better that I just didn't go. Not only that, but I've been terribly busy lately that I couldn't have, anyway.
Elizabeth said that it might have been better for me to try and just do things outside of my room and studio... that being in these few spots might be adding to the fact that I've been feeling really down lately. I told her that we could study together more often-- not only could I stay on task much easier when there's a friend around, but I have been quite lonely. She wants to take me "walking" (since I said 'hiking' sounded too hard) and we're going to find a time to go shopping, hopefully where I can finally get a pair of some nice sweatpants for general wearing... things to get my blood flowing, hopefully I'll start not minding doing things again.
One of my housemates always says that she doesn't know where I am, if I were home or not. I told her it might have been funny if she were to be like, "Oh, what's that smell?" and then realize that I was dead and rotting in my room!!!! She went like... well, this is the perfect emoticon "O_O" and... hahaha. Of course, I'm just kidding, but...
So this weekend is going to a museum, finishing Frankenstein, finishing up my paintings, doing my cast... doing the walk project for 3D foundation. I'm packed this weekend... this week. Midterms and things like that. It's been quite stressing, so I suppose it's understandable that my mood has been so odd lately.
"Saku, you just disappeared, and we all wondered where you were..." "We were worried about you..."
Prior to last night, during the day, Jeffrey IM'ed me about going to College Night in the dining hall, and I figured since I was hungry and I hadn't seen him around, I might as well. It was just me and him, and we talked about a lot of things. College Night was about Black History Month and stuff, you know... where they offer fried chicken, pecan pies, macaroni and cheese, etc? Hahaha. Yeah. The music was much too loud for it's own good, though, it hurt my ears terribly.
Starting from the weekend on, this week has been nice in the way that I've had outside contact than what I've been doing for the past weeks--maybe even month or past that. Otherwise my general mood has been still quite gloomy.
I'm terribly exhausted, thinking of taking a nap, but unsure if I should or not. Class got out early today, which I'm quite thankful for, and I did quite a bit of speaking during it. It was 3D foundation section, and I think most of the class enjoyed it as much as I did... seeing how I treated it like Literature section, I just said a lot of interesting things. The TA seemed more pleased than usual.