rebirth.
let's just say i had a dream
that went in one to many terrible directions.
it began as simple at the basics of existence.
it all started in this specific brownish metal room/building.
i was born,
along with four other people.
the birth was not the normal process though, it was as such to just begin existing, like the world was caressing our tiny bodies telling us sweetly,
come exist
come, to be.
So there it was, me and four other people begin.
growing up flew by almost too fast to see
a blur of memories that i'd never experienced in this normal life.
i felt happier then i've had in real life for that short period of time.
then we died.
we don't know how
but we did not exist.
throughout this dream i sensed it set up for a morose ending because perfection is always just a little out of reach. This feeling was because none of the people i know were in this dream, at all. Even during the happy parts i was undoubtedly alone.
Again, we didn't have the process show, and neither of us knew how it came to happen, but we died.
where we ended up looked exactly like the arctic circle, with northern lights and everything, and for some reason beyond my sub conscious, it wasn't cold.
also, apparently we discovered that this place we were in was called "hell".
i began to panic.
i was alone,
i died alone,
i didn't want it to be this way because i wanted to live,
no i physically needed to live.
further then we continued to find a small town with about 5 buildings and we were just trying to find out way out.
eventually we came across a man.
we told him we needed out we weren't meant to be here.
he told us
"i can show you the way out, but you know, you came here, you can't escape this place. be careful what you're going to ask for."
he led us to this weird tunnel.
and we began to climb
a very short time into climbing all of a sudden it's me and sarah in a movie theater and it's just us watching me and these four people climb through this tunnel. the tunnel itself was very michel gondry-esque so we thought in the place we were that it was and sarah only says one thing as she turns to me and says,
"this isn't as good as i wanted it, like, this isn't the way i expected it to end up".
now during this portion i'd like to mention that for some reason i only remember certain phrases that were burned into my mind, for instance, that one.
furthermore, as soon as she said that i was back to making it out of the tunnel and me and the three strangers crawled out into a building
and it all dawned on us that it was the place we were "born."
and a voice drifted into all of our heads and here's another important phrase.
"this is where is starts, it always happens exactly from the beginning."
and we were happy.
so our normal lives continue for maybe half a day
and suddenly we all black out.
we are back in the arctic place.
suddenly we lose hope,
we're confused,
i am sullen and in despair.
now there is a visible one thousand foot wall that stretches so far into the sky you cannot see the top
and there is a small regular door at the base.
after some sort of consensus me and another guy decided to go out the gate and escape.
two full armed officers suddenly load their shotguns and throw us back in.
they shut the door.
and it dissapears, further down onto another part of the wall.
at this point i'm in hysterics because i realize i'm never going to get out
i'm stuck here.
i was also confused because i couldn't understand if i was dead or not and neither could the three other people. so i start screaming to the sky,
"is this some sort of sick experiment? are you going to keep us here like caged birds?"
then suddenly
it gets cold.
as cold as the arctic circle would be.
and i look to the northern lights
and im looking for a shooting star because i feel so trapped i can only wish my way out i can only scream for something and plead at the stars.
i'm crying to much
and i'm so distraught
that i am 1/5th awake and can feel myself crying uncontrollably into my pillow also.
then suddenly i wake up to a phone call.
it was really ironic
and i'll end this on this note,
i got a text message from derek at 11:11 saying
"make a wish".
and i was thoroughly shaken.
anyways, that's about it for this bit,
you stay sane planet earth.
that went in one to many terrible directions.
it began as simple at the basics of existence.
it all started in this specific brownish metal room/building.
i was born,
along with four other people.
the birth was not the normal process though, it was as such to just begin existing, like the world was caressing our tiny bodies telling us sweetly,
come exist
come, to be.
So there it was, me and four other people begin.
growing up flew by almost too fast to see
a blur of memories that i'd never experienced in this normal life.
i felt happier then i've had in real life for that short period of time.
then we died.
we don't know how
but we did not exist.
throughout this dream i sensed it set up for a morose ending because perfection is always just a little out of reach. This feeling was because none of the people i know were in this dream, at all. Even during the happy parts i was undoubtedly alone.
Again, we didn't have the process show, and neither of us knew how it came to happen, but we died.
where we ended up looked exactly like the arctic circle, with northern lights and everything, and for some reason beyond my sub conscious, it wasn't cold.
also, apparently we discovered that this place we were in was called "hell".
i began to panic.
i was alone,
i died alone,
i didn't want it to be this way because i wanted to live,
no i physically needed to live.
further then we continued to find a small town with about 5 buildings and we were just trying to find out way out.
eventually we came across a man.
we told him we needed out we weren't meant to be here.
he told us
"i can show you the way out, but you know, you came here, you can't escape this place. be careful what you're going to ask for."
he led us to this weird tunnel.
and we began to climb
a very short time into climbing all of a sudden it's me and sarah in a movie theater and it's just us watching me and these four people climb through this tunnel. the tunnel itself was very michel gondry-esque so we thought in the place we were that it was and sarah only says one thing as she turns to me and says,
"this isn't as good as i wanted it, like, this isn't the way i expected it to end up".
now during this portion i'd like to mention that for some reason i only remember certain phrases that were burned into my mind, for instance, that one.
furthermore, as soon as she said that i was back to making it out of the tunnel and me and the three strangers crawled out into a building
and it all dawned on us that it was the place we were "born."
and a voice drifted into all of our heads and here's another important phrase.
"this is where is starts, it always happens exactly from the beginning."
and we were happy.
so our normal lives continue for maybe half a day
and suddenly we all black out.
we are back in the arctic place.
suddenly we lose hope,
we're confused,
i am sullen and in despair.
now there is a visible one thousand foot wall that stretches so far into the sky you cannot see the top
and there is a small regular door at the base.
after some sort of consensus me and another guy decided to go out the gate and escape.
two full armed officers suddenly load their shotguns and throw us back in.
they shut the door.
and it dissapears, further down onto another part of the wall.
at this point i'm in hysterics because i realize i'm never going to get out
i'm stuck here.
i was also confused because i couldn't understand if i was dead or not and neither could the three other people. so i start screaming to the sky,
"is this some sort of sick experiment? are you going to keep us here like caged birds?"
then suddenly
it gets cold.
as cold as the arctic circle would be.
and i look to the northern lights
and im looking for a shooting star because i feel so trapped i can only wish my way out i can only scream for something and plead at the stars.
i'm crying to much
and i'm so distraught
that i am 1/5th awake and can feel myself crying uncontrollably into my pillow also.
then suddenly i wake up to a phone call.
it was really ironic
and i'll end this on this note,
i got a text message from derek at 11:11 saying
"make a wish".
and i was thoroughly shaken.
anyways, that's about it for this bit,
you stay sane planet earth.