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So my life has been just dandy these past monthes!(say with sarcasim) As all of you know i moved back home in the beginning of July. If i told any of you that i moved by choice, i lied to you. i got kicked out of my aunt and uncles house. i got kicked out for things i could of avoided doing. i could of avoided almost failing night school and lying to them about going when i didnt. i could of avoided giving them a hard time about school, even though i was doing well. i could of avoided spending over 1000 dollars with a credit card that they paid for and trusted me with that was only for gas and things that i discused with them beforehand. By May i felt unwanted and i started feeling really depressed. i thought about suicide more times than i can count. But it was just a thought. I know that im better, so i would never do that. When i moved out, i was selfish and did not talk to my aunt or uncle until end of Augest/beginning of Sept. But i talk to them now. My reltionship is not as strong as it used to be with them though. A peice of me left when i moved back home. I had something so great and i fucked it up.
I moved back home on July 5th. I hated it, still do. My father can't see eye to eye about anything. it has to be his way or it cant work at all. He is never there for me and that makes me feel sad. He is the most anal, irrogant asshole i know. And he is controlling. Money to him is like the Holy grail. I recently got a job working at the Gap. I work for 3 reasons, School credit, paying my father for car insurence and my own personal money. If i do something slightly wrong, my father will threaten my by turning off my cell phone. He says that about 5-8 times a day. It gets annoying. He has only done it 3 times though, but i now know the password to re-activate it. If you ever call me and get a weird message, thats why. So back to my Father. Like i said, he's an asshole. He eats everything in the house as well. When i ask him where something(foodwise) is that he ate, he yells at me. If i touch any of his stuff, he yells at me. If i dont do something to his standard, he Yells at me. My mom on the other hand...TOTAL OPPISITE of my dad. She lets me get away with anything. sometimes its a good thing, sometimes its a bad thing. She hates my father as well. I want them to divorce. My mom also is quite annoying. She depends on her friends way too much. She is always out. She is never home. She puts her friends before me sometimes. She wants to be liked i guess and she is. All my friends like her, they say shes the cool mom, which she is, but you guys dont know the jeanne that i do.
This next part is for Hilary Wagner, Dan Wolf and John Overton. Hil, Your my best friend. Your the elite of all my friends. You would do anything for me and vice versa. I think you feel sometimes i use you, but i dont. I would never do anything like that to you. Hil, I love you and i always will. Your one of the best things thats ever come into my life. Tears are coming to my eyes right now because i mean this so much. I would be lost without you. Like you always say, I owe you my life, but you already have my heart. Dan Wolf...Were like one person. You and i do everything together that we shouldnt be doing! You put other people before yourself to make them happy, and thats something thats very unique about yourself. its a wonderful trait. You know how to treat your friends. Dude, your the man and you know that. When you go to Israel for a year, im prolly gonna have to come visit..alot. Last but not least, Johnny Overton. Man...I see you too fuckin much. haha. no man, but in all honestly, our friendship grew soo much this summer its not even funny. we hung out like what? almost everyday? we had our 2 weeks of nothing but hookah smoking. you are the funniest motherfucker i know, and when im feeling down, i know if i go over the overtons house, i'll get harassed because im jewish and i'll get a good laugh. Your band is fuckin amazing and i know it will get you places in the future even though you say it wont. i can see us in 30 years...Chillin in your garage Smoking a cigerette and drinking budweiser. but your one of my best friends and i dont want that to change.
well...thats about it for right now. Thanks for taking the time to read it.
I moved back home on July 5th. I hated it, still do. My father can't see eye to eye about anything. it has to be his way or it cant work at all. He is never there for me and that makes me feel sad. He is the most anal, irrogant asshole i know. And he is controlling. Money to him is like the Holy grail. I recently got a job working at the Gap. I work for 3 reasons, School credit, paying my father for car insurence and my own personal money. If i do something slightly wrong, my father will threaten my by turning off my cell phone. He says that about 5-8 times a day. It gets annoying. He has only done it 3 times though, but i now know the password to re-activate it. If you ever call me and get a weird message, thats why. So back to my Father. Like i said, he's an asshole. He eats everything in the house as well. When i ask him where something(foodwise) is that he ate, he yells at me. If i touch any of his stuff, he yells at me. If i dont do something to his standard, he Yells at me. My mom on the other hand...TOTAL OPPISITE of my dad. She lets me get away with anything. sometimes its a good thing, sometimes its a bad thing. She hates my father as well. I want them to divorce. My mom also is quite annoying. She depends on her friends way too much. She is always out. She is never home. She puts her friends before me sometimes. She wants to be liked i guess and she is. All my friends like her, they say shes the cool mom, which she is, but you guys dont know the jeanne that i do.
This next part is for Hilary Wagner, Dan Wolf and John Overton. Hil, Your my best friend. Your the elite of all my friends. You would do anything for me and vice versa. I think you feel sometimes i use you, but i dont. I would never do anything like that to you. Hil, I love you and i always will. Your one of the best things thats ever come into my life. Tears are coming to my eyes right now because i mean this so much. I would be lost without you. Like you always say, I owe you my life, but you already have my heart. Dan Wolf...Were like one person. You and i do everything together that we shouldnt be doing! You put other people before yourself to make them happy, and thats something thats very unique about yourself. its a wonderful trait. You know how to treat your friends. Dude, your the man and you know that. When you go to Israel for a year, im prolly gonna have to come visit..alot. Last but not least, Johnny Overton. Man...I see you too fuckin much. haha. no man, but in all honestly, our friendship grew soo much this summer its not even funny. we hung out like what? almost everyday? we had our 2 weeks of nothing but hookah smoking. you are the funniest motherfucker i know, and when im feeling down, i know if i go over the overtons house, i'll get harassed because im jewish and i'll get a good laugh. Your band is fuckin amazing and i know it will get you places in the future even though you say it wont. i can see us in 30 years...Chillin in your garage Smoking a cigerette and drinking budweiser. but your one of my best friends and i dont want that to change.
well...thats about it for right now. Thanks for taking the time to read it.