(no subject)
so, yesterday i met my jesse's most recent ex-girlfriend, meagan, which was disconcerting on many levels.
a trip through my brain when i encountered them walking to get ice cream: "she's cute, but god she looks young, even though i'm pretty sure she's older than i am - who isn't, though? and she's being really nice to me - actually, genuinely nice, unlike hannah, good ol' serious ex-girlfriend number 1 [whom i met ultra-randomly in a meijer]. crap, i look like shit."
they looked cute when they were standing next to each other with their dirty blond thing going on. and she played video games with him, which automatically makes her more fun than me .
and then i remembered that the straw that broke their relationship camel's back was me, pretty much. when pressed he will usually admit that they broke up because he was thinking about what it would be like to be with other people. the kind of people who break their sandals at parties where past sketchy hookups are hitting on them and then sob about it later while they contemplate jumping a train to chicago at approximately 2 am. sounds like a solid kind of people.
she's nice, but she makes me feel guilty. i wonder if jesse feels similarly.
a trip through my brain when i encountered them walking to get ice cream: "she's cute, but god she looks young, even though i'm pretty sure she's older than i am - who isn't, though? and she's being really nice to me - actually, genuinely nice, unlike hannah, good ol' serious ex-girlfriend number 1 [whom i met ultra-randomly in a meijer]. crap, i look like shit."
they looked cute when they were standing next to each other with their dirty blond thing going on. and she played video games with him, which automatically makes her more fun than me .
and then i remembered that the straw that broke their relationship camel's back was me, pretty much. when pressed he will usually admit that they broke up because he was thinking about what it would be like to be with other people. the kind of people who break their sandals at parties where past sketchy hookups are hitting on them and then sob about it later while they contemplate jumping a train to chicago at approximately 2 am. sounds like a solid kind of people.
she's nice, but she makes me feel guilty. i wonder if jesse feels similarly.