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Jack comes down from his room, walking quickly, eyes darting everywhere. The larger area of the bar isn't helping; there's too much noise, too many people, and that feeling of dread and danger is only getting worse.
Beckett said there was an outside here, somewhere with no walls and no ceiling to make him feel like he's closed in. And hopefully, not so many people. Dodging patrons, Jack makes his way through the crowd, finding the door where Beckett had shown him, and steps out into the crisp night air.
It's dark and quiet out here, more open, and he can see if anyone is approaching long before they get close enough to be a threat.
But it's not helping.
His chest feels like there's something pressing down on it, making it hard to breathe. His heart is pounding, his hands shaking, and with every gasp for breath, the worse it seems to get.
It's something like when he had his heart attack, and he has the feeling that he shouldn't have come out here, that he's going to die out here and no one's going to know, that he should go back in the bar and get help, but he can't because his knees are shaking and he feels lightheaded and he has to hold on to a nearby tree to keep from falling.
It's a panic attack, not a heart attack, but Jack hasn't had one of them before. Someone might want to help him figure it out.
Beckett said there was an outside here, somewhere with no walls and no ceiling to make him feel like he's closed in. And hopefully, not so many people. Dodging patrons, Jack makes his way through the crowd, finding the door where Beckett had shown him, and steps out into the crisp night air.
It's dark and quiet out here, more open, and he can see if anyone is approaching long before they get close enough to be a threat.
But it's not helping.
His chest feels like there's something pressing down on it, making it hard to breathe. His heart is pounding, his hands shaking, and with every gasp for breath, the worse it seems to get.
It's something like when he had his heart attack, and he has the feeling that he shouldn't have come out here, that he's going to die out here and no one's going to know, that he should go back in the bar and get help, but he can't because his knees are shaking and he feels lightheaded and he has to hold on to a nearby tree to keep from falling.
It's a panic attack, not a heart attack, but Jack hasn't had one of them before. Someone might want to help him figure it out.