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Jason is in the Bar today. He still had a pair of soft knit shorts stashed in the rocks outside, but no shirt. He doesn't really care, though. He'd just pulled them on without a second thought and trudged into the Bar

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"We need to talk."

That's all Charlie says to him, though there's quite a bit more he's thinking upon seeing Jason looking the way he does.

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Jason doesn't change the direction of his stare, and he sounds just as far away when he says softly, "I don't want to talk right now."

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"You're going to explain why I found Moon crying yesterday, over you."

There's no room for argument in his tone. "Whether or not you want to talk."

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That gets the ghost of a reaction as the guilt digs deeper through his defenses. His jaw tenses and his eyes close.

And he still doesn't answer.

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Charlie knows threatening will do little good. So he's not going to tell Jason to talk before he beats it out of him, even if he wants to.

"Tell me. You owe us both that."

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Eyes still closed, he asks softly, "What did she tell you?"

There's sadness there, but he's numb; so much so that pinning down an emotion is next to impossible at the moment.

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"Extraordinarily little, that's the problem. You were rough with her."

The look Charlie is giving Jason says volumes, and he's going to see it, as Charlie's hand is turning Jason's chin toward him. "Tell me what you did, or I'm going to assume it's what I think, and you're going to regret me doing that."

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Something flashes briefly in his eyes. "You're right. I was. I shouldn't have been."

Being directed to look at Charlie, he does; but there is still an empty sadness in his expression. He could insist that she said yes or that he misunderstood her cries, but he has no intention of rationalizing what he's done.

So he says nothing.

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"You're right, you shouldn't have been. Were you high?" He isn't intending to get a serious answer to that.

But if he got one he wouldn't be surprised.

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He gives the barest shake of his head. "Not so much then..."

He'd been coming down when she found him.

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"Jesus Christ, Jason," he sighs, immeasurably angry. And not just at him, though that will be little consolation. Charlie won't hit him here. He knows better, and he's tried getting away from Jason once.

That proved just about how little tolerance he has for the idea. "You must have pinned her like a bitch in heat, did you not think with anything more than your cock beforehand?" It's intended as a rhetorical question.

Charlie knows he couldn't have, he was there with Moon trying to clean her up, and god only knows what else is hurting that he won't find out until it's nearly too late to fix. "You're damn lucky I won't shoot you. As it is ruin's still likely going to beat you bloody."

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His head falls into his hands, fingers combing through his hair.

He used her. Everything that happened comes flooding back, and he doesn't enjoy reliving it. Let Ruin come: he'd almost welcome it right now. He wants to send Charlie away to keep him from rubbing his face in all this, but guilt and shame won't let him.

Sit and take it.

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Charlie sighs, and moves forward to pull Jason's face out of his hands, settling on his heels in front of him.

"Jason. Why?" He knows the frustration of being asked to go back over it, but he can't chalk it up to there just being a mistake. Not after seeing Moon.

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"I don't know! I just did." he snaps back, looking almsot tortured.

It's in there somewhere, if it can only come out. He cares about her and wants her, and it's wrong. Isn't it? He shouldn't want her like he does...

That she would be the only one that it still felt good with...

Well that's gone now.

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"I'm not angry at you. Just calm down for a moment, and talk to me. What happened to make you do that, or do you not know?"

He's switched to therapist mode now, calm and comfortable and soft-spoken.

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He drops his head into his hands with a muffled cry of frustration.

"I don't know...I had a fight with Yrael and I went outside and she found me and..."

And I still felt something with her.