Jul 14, 2007 19:47
Tomorrow is Sunday. Tonight is Peter's last night 'alive.'
From his windblown hair, it's pretty clear that he can now cross off One last ride on Duncan from his list of things to do. And from the cup of tea, it's clear that he is still, in fact, himself.
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Three years gone and more, for her, now.
(She looks different. Older. Grandly dressed. Very, very pregnant.)
"Good evening, Peter."
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It's funny how everything confirms the decision. He smiles when he sees her, and grins at her pregnant belly. "At it again, are we?"
(If things had gone as planned, as once planned, there'd be no Princess Susan. No who-ever-this-is. And if Susan--Susan the elder, as it were--had been on the train, there'd be no neice and maybe-nephew.
It's all for the best. And this is what they call perspective. You get it when you're dead.)
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Amy shrugs lightly, and grins back. "A king with no brother and no son tends to make the populace nervous," she says.
Besides, Amy really is excessively fond of her husband.
"May I join you?"
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He doesn't know if she knows.
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"Caspian told me. Will you go with them?"
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In many ways, he's thankful for those folken from Mid-World, and not the least because it means they have a--blueprint, for how things are done. It's something that's happened before.
"Yes," he says simply. "Tomorrow night."
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The light catches on the beads on the dreamcatcher Amy's worn aroudn her neck every day since Susan Allgood and her friends left.
She reaches one hand out to cover one of his.
"Then God grant you rest, Peter Pevensie."
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He doesn't blame anyone for any reaction; he's lost people himself, and he knows that rage and grief and loss are all a part of it. With the person there before you, it would take incredible grace and wisdom and infinite kindness to show only compassion.
He appreciates it more than he can express. "I regret very much I shan't see your children grown."
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She smiles, soft and tinged with the tiniest bits of both sadness and amusement.
"You will, though. Someday."
Her fingers wrap around her necklace.
"There will be a lot to catch up on."
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"I've been thinking about it," he explains. "I suppose it's only natural. About loss, and going where we're going. And I think--"
"It's hard to explain." He shakes his head.
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Kings do not make decisions lightly. And that is not an easy habit to break.
"Would it help to try to explain? I'll listen, to whatever you want to say."
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"And I've realized, what I regret--beyond the pain that may come to those left behind--is the loss of--futures. I shall see you again, one day, and we'll have much to say to one another. And I will not have been there for it."
"I shall see your children grown, but I won't see them grow. Do you see? And it's not--it's not--"
He sighs, and then says firmly, with great sincerity. "I'm all right, you know, Amy. You mustn't worry. But I do feel these regrets, and I don't--ah, regret them? Because it's a bit of being in the living world, and I don't have many of those bits left."
"I don't know if that made any sense at all," he says ruefully.
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"It made enough sense," says Amy, gently. "You poor, dear man.
"We all of us will leave things unfinished. That, too, is part of being in the living world, I suppose. I doubt, though, that makes the things you'll leave any easier."
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"About this," she says, and the gesture with her free hand takes in the table and the two of them, "I have no regrets. You were, you are, you always will be a good in my life."
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