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So. 7 months unemployed. I'm having problems once again with the unemployment office, and it's impossible to get through to them. At the risk of letting my negativity get the best of me, I just feel like the universe is screwing with me. Never in my life has my inner strength been tested like this and I just don't know what I ever did wrong in my life to deserve this. I thought I was making all the right choices. I went to school, worked hard, didn't marry the wrong person or have kids before I was ready. And my reward is over half a year of unemployment and stuck in the worst job market in the company?
I'm ready to come back to the east coast, but I don't even feel like I can yet. It's like every time I get close to catching up to my bills again, something else happens.
I hate feeling this negative, as well. It's not who I am and it's not who I want to be. I just need to figure out how to drag myself out of this funk.
I've mostly been avoiding livejournal because I didn't want to come here and unload all my fear and uncertainty. But I decided that I needed to write about it so I stop internalizing it and having it affect my daily mood.
My mom keeps trying to remind me that things won't always be this bad, but it's hard to imagine a time when things will be better.
I'm ready to come back to the east coast, but I don't even feel like I can yet. It's like every time I get close to catching up to my bills again, something else happens.
I hate feeling this negative, as well. It's not who I am and it's not who I want to be. I just need to figure out how to drag myself out of this funk.
I've mostly been avoiding livejournal because I didn't want to come here and unload all my fear and uncertainty. But I decided that I needed to write about it so I stop internalizing it and having it affect my daily mood.
My mom keeps trying to remind me that things won't always be this bad, but it's hard to imagine a time when things will be better.