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(((Entry open to all but Pele. Comments closed to everyone)))
I'm so confused... but at the same time, I feel like I know everything... I feel so many emotions right now.
I feel...
Guilty: I keep fighting with everyone. Maybe it because I have high expectations. I think I'm just mad that people aren't living up to my standards. Everyone is either distressed, concerned or angry, and I don't like it. I've pissed off so many people today. I've been cruel. I even made Amelda cry...
Pity: It's decided. I don't know about you - and I don't care, either- but I must help Pele. Ever since I was possessed, I've been going through the day feeling so ashamed that I'm doing nothing to help her. I pity her. I want to help her. i have to help her. She needs it so much...
Happy: Amelda's and Kaiba are getting hitched. I can't wait to see the increase in lover's spats that come from that arrangement.
Lonely: I'm surrounded by friends. But not by family. It's killing me. Isis and Rishid... I want them back. I can't be without them for this long... without feeling helpless and sick.
Sad: I feel so depressed and confused. I feel weak. I don't understand my self anymore. I don't register half the stuff I'm saying. I feel... dead.
I don't want to get possessed again, but as you can see... I'm feeling such negative emotions.
... I've locked myself in my room. I can't be near anyone anymore. I don't know when I'll come out.
*breaks down and starts to cry*