Sho: What's a pride!!
Chapter 1:
Sho: What's pride!
Winter, 2005
You are the Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing Queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, digging the Dancing Queen
I play this song over and over again. I think, I got addicted. It make me think about my parents yesterday. Yeah,. As unexpected, My parents did Omiai for me with 17 years old girls,,. (What the heck is it)
She is good girl from proper family, Ok let me say She is from neat rich family.
"You, Sakurai Sho,. You'll be happy if you marry this girl. we know it well, You know her, right?."
"Okasan,. I'm just 23 years old,. It's too soon" I said politely.. In my family well mannered is a must.
"Ok.. I know you got the contract. We just want you to be with her, try to love her may be." My father lecture me again
"COme on sho-kun.. think about it again,. Okasan to ottosan will wait your decision" My mother beg me. I see my watch. "maa.. I need to leave now. I promise I'll think about it" I just say it for make them happy, at least they'll be calm and not call me again for such riddiculous disscusion like this.
"Itekimasu.."
"Ittedasaii.."
I ride my car to studio. Why I always be like this? I use to play proper kid perhaps since I live with elite family. My mother always gave me a list something do and don't do in front of other people, neighborhood, society.
My mother is a sensei in girl school, she is english teacher. That's why my english is better than my friend. My Father is a business man, he run hotel and resort.
He has good pride, for him loyalty and achievnment is something precious.
Both my parents are busy man, they are often came late at home. Yeah, they used to say, It's for Our Family, we have to work on our best. I do understand with their principle, but sometime i feel lonely, I feel empty.
I think, My life is not complete until now. even Now, after I've became a super star. I work as dancer and singer, I called it sho rebellion. I'm bored with my daily.
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"Sakurai-san... You've come.. I'm Maki,. new AD in this show, Yoroshiku onegaisimasu."
"Yes.. Yoroshiku..." I bow,, and greet this man, I think he is arround 25 years old
"will you get ready, there's Badai room"
"Haaii..^^" I smile and walk away to that room. I hope all of the member already in that room so I don't make an excuse to show's staff for them.
As usuall, I come in the first place. Nobody in this room. I'm so tired with this group, we've been together for 5 years. will they change?
5 minute pass
"Sho-can.... Ohaiiyoouuuu..." This voice come from tallest guy in this group, always smile. I think it's just a fake smile, I hate it. His name is Aiba Masaki
"Ohaiiyoouu,." I greet him back.
"Ohaiyou gozaimasu,.." Three man behind aiba, greet in the same time. They are Nino, Ohno and Jun.
"Oh.. Ohaiyou"
"Yabbari ne, Sho-kun always came early." Nino grin, among all of the member only nino who know my true nature. He know my background and all of my fakeness.
for me He is a threat.
I smile and continue read my news paper, I don't want get any influence with nino.
"OK get ready everyone, we'll start in 5,4,3,2,1 go!
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I do upset today. I must get ready to come in my father college reunion. It held in my father's hotel.
As a eldest son, my father want me to greet every father coleage. I'm bored, I have to hide my true nature, I want to say, what i wont to say.
"Sho-kun come here.." My father call me, I think he'll introduce me to his friend.
"Nice to meet you" I greet them all
"Whooa.. Sakurai super Idol." they try to tease me. Well I used to it. I reply them with a humble smile. Once again I called it "fake me".
After I met my father friends, I help mother control this party. Suddenly, a girl rush to get out from the mob. She is smilling at that time.
She speak politely to everyone and ask them letting her go home first. Her face is familiar, I believe I ever met her before. When she come close to me, She's smiling again. and say..
"Are you sakurai-san?"
I'm quite, I'm stunned, I smell some fragnant that i never smell before. I never meet something beautifull like her before. Her brown eyes look at me, wait for answer.
"ya.. I'm.." Finally I say something
"I'm sorry, I must leave soon. my plane will take off in 30 minute. Would you say my gratitude to Mr and Mrs Sakurai.."
"Yes, Of course, thanks for coming" She smile again and bow and she leave me. I think she is not japanese girl, her age arround 20 years old. She walk very fast.
Well, I tell the truth, I never fell in love before. All the girl arround me are dolls for me, I play with them to satisfy me. But when with them, I feel zero desire. There's no love.
But when I met that girl before, I felt something new. Is this love?
"Have you meet her?" my father wake me from my stunned.
"yes?"
"You've just met girls that we prepare for you. She is like cinderalla, isn't she?" well this time my father got me. I agree that girls is different.
"She say thanks to you." I can't tell my father that I like her. I don't want marry now. If I said I like her, I'll lose from my parent. It'll hurt my pride.
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"Sho-chan....." AibA try to talk with me. well I talk a lot in tv show, but in my real life I'm loner, I'm quite person.
"nani?" I ask him, I think it's kindness
"will you drink tonight with me? I'll got a girls for us.. ne" He ask me to go out tonight, for me who live with parent will be troublesome if I drunk.
"Ah, Gomen.. I have appointment tonight. pick up my sister, you know how dangerous the night is?" i lie, Oke I used to lie.. I have sister in College. sometime she ask me to pick her up, but I don't know tonight she will ask me ir not.
"Oh.. I see. ne ne.. Let's do that another time"
"UUn.. Other time" I answer him. I think it'll be better if I leave this room.
"Eh,. Where you go?" Aiba Ask me
"mmm.. smoke, tobako." I leave him with jun sleep in sofa.
I smoke in out side of studio. I think it's nice time for me. Taking deep breath and closing my eyes, I try to remember everything about that girl. Her eyes, her mouth, her nose, her breast, her hips and her... mmm.
I want to know her more.
"daydreaming sho?" Nino come out from back doors. He always sunddenly come, that's why I hate him.
"You.." I grin to him.
"Or are you thinking about how hide your true persona in front of new staff,ha?" he say as he please.
"Whatever, It's not your concern"
"Is that pride really important for you?" He ask me again. He is more sharped-tounge than woman sleep with me last night.
I keep quite. He is so annoying.
"What's good from being elite, if you can't enjoy your life" nino say,. He give up, he leave me alone.
well, since I was kid, I don't know how enjoy my life. I'm zombie, Zombie life as Idol.
[Be continued...]
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I got inspired from sakurai interview in tokudane this month. I'm lil bit curious with his dark side. He is my bias,.. That's why, I write from his point of view. Well, all of this is fiction. I'm not own them.
Next week, will be form Aiba point of view..
Sho: What's pride!
Winter, 2005
You are the Dancing Queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing Queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, digging the Dancing Queen
I play this song over and over again. I think, I got addicted. It make me think about my parents yesterday. Yeah,. As unexpected, My parents did Omiai for me with 17 years old girls,,. (What the heck is it)
She is good girl from proper family, Ok let me say She is from neat rich family.
"You, Sakurai Sho,. You'll be happy if you marry this girl. we know it well, You know her, right?."
"Okasan,. I'm just 23 years old,. It's too soon" I said politely.. In my family well mannered is a must.
"Ok.. I know you got the contract. We just want you to be with her, try to love her may be." My father lecture me again
"COme on sho-kun.. think about it again,. Okasan to ottosan will wait your decision" My mother beg me. I see my watch. "maa.. I need to leave now. I promise I'll think about it" I just say it for make them happy, at least they'll be calm and not call me again for such riddiculous disscusion like this.
"Itekimasu.."
"Ittedasaii.."
I ride my car to studio. Why I always be like this? I use to play proper kid perhaps since I live with elite family. My mother always gave me a list something do and don't do in front of other people, neighborhood, society.
My mother is a sensei in girl school, she is english teacher. That's why my english is better than my friend. My Father is a business man, he run hotel and resort.
He has good pride, for him loyalty and achievnment is something precious.
Both my parents are busy man, they are often came late at home. Yeah, they used to say, It's for Our Family, we have to work on our best. I do understand with their principle, but sometime i feel lonely, I feel empty.
I think, My life is not complete until now. even Now, after I've became a super star. I work as dancer and singer, I called it sho rebellion. I'm bored with my daily.
---------------
"Sakurai-san... You've come.. I'm Maki,. new AD in this show, Yoroshiku onegaisimasu."
"Yes.. Yoroshiku..." I bow,, and greet this man, I think he is arround 25 years old
"will you get ready, there's Badai room"
"Haaii..^^" I smile and walk away to that room. I hope all of the member already in that room so I don't make an excuse to show's staff for them.
As usuall, I come in the first place. Nobody in this room. I'm so tired with this group, we've been together for 5 years. will they change?
5 minute pass
"Sho-can.... Ohaiiyoouuuu..." This voice come from tallest guy in this group, always smile. I think it's just a fake smile, I hate it. His name is Aiba Masaki
"Ohaiiyoouu,." I greet him back.
"Ohaiyou gozaimasu,.." Three man behind aiba, greet in the same time. They are Nino, Ohno and Jun.
"Oh.. Ohaiyou"
"Yabbari ne, Sho-kun always came early." Nino grin, among all of the member only nino who know my true nature. He know my background and all of my fakeness.
for me He is a threat.
I smile and continue read my news paper, I don't want get any influence with nino.
"OK get ready everyone, we'll start in 5,4,3,2,1 go!
----------------
I do upset today. I must get ready to come in my father college reunion. It held in my father's hotel.
As a eldest son, my father want me to greet every father coleage. I'm bored, I have to hide my true nature, I want to say, what i wont to say.
"Sho-kun come here.." My father call me, I think he'll introduce me to his friend.
"Nice to meet you" I greet them all
"Whooa.. Sakurai super Idol." they try to tease me. Well I used to it. I reply them with a humble smile. Once again I called it "fake me".
After I met my father friends, I help mother control this party. Suddenly, a girl rush to get out from the mob. She is smilling at that time.
She speak politely to everyone and ask them letting her go home first. Her face is familiar, I believe I ever met her before. When she come close to me, She's smiling again. and say..
"Are you sakurai-san?"
I'm quite, I'm stunned, I smell some fragnant that i never smell before. I never meet something beautifull like her before. Her brown eyes look at me, wait for answer.
"ya.. I'm.." Finally I say something
"I'm sorry, I must leave soon. my plane will take off in 30 minute. Would you say my gratitude to Mr and Mrs Sakurai.."
"Yes, Of course, thanks for coming" She smile again and bow and she leave me. I think she is not japanese girl, her age arround 20 years old. She walk very fast.
Well, I tell the truth, I never fell in love before. All the girl arround me are dolls for me, I play with them to satisfy me. But when with them, I feel zero desire. There's no love.
But when I met that girl before, I felt something new. Is this love?
"Have you meet her?" my father wake me from my stunned.
"yes?"
"You've just met girls that we prepare for you. She is like cinderalla, isn't she?" well this time my father got me. I agree that girls is different.
"She say thanks to you." I can't tell my father that I like her. I don't want marry now. If I said I like her, I'll lose from my parent. It'll hurt my pride.
---------------------
"Sho-chan....." AibA try to talk with me. well I talk a lot in tv show, but in my real life I'm loner, I'm quite person.
"nani?" I ask him, I think it's kindness
"will you drink tonight with me? I'll got a girls for us.. ne" He ask me to go out tonight, for me who live with parent will be troublesome if I drunk.
"Ah, Gomen.. I have appointment tonight. pick up my sister, you know how dangerous the night is?" i lie, Oke I used to lie.. I have sister in College. sometime she ask me to pick her up, but I don't know tonight she will ask me ir not.
"Oh.. I see. ne ne.. Let's do that another time"
"UUn.. Other time" I answer him. I think it'll be better if I leave this room.
"Eh,. Where you go?" Aiba Ask me
"mmm.. smoke, tobako." I leave him with jun sleep in sofa.
I smoke in out side of studio. I think it's nice time for me. Taking deep breath and closing my eyes, I try to remember everything about that girl. Her eyes, her mouth, her nose, her breast, her hips and her... mmm.
I want to know her more.
"daydreaming sho?" Nino come out from back doors. He always sunddenly come, that's why I hate him.
"You.." I grin to him.
"Or are you thinking about how hide your true persona in front of new staff,ha?" he say as he please.
"Whatever, It's not your concern"
"Is that pride really important for you?" He ask me again. He is more sharped-tounge than woman sleep with me last night.
I keep quite. He is so annoying.
"What's good from being elite, if you can't enjoy your life" nino say,. He give up, he leave me alone.
well, since I was kid, I don't know how enjoy my life. I'm zombie, Zombie life as Idol.
[Be continued...]
***************************************************************************************************************
I got inspired from sakurai interview in tokudane this month. I'm lil bit curious with his dark side. He is my bias,.. That's why, I write from his point of view. Well, all of this is fiction. I'm not own them.
Next week, will be form Aiba point of view..