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hey everyone how are all of you? im doing well.... well sort of.... i donno lately i've been feeling kinda alone ya know and i havent felt this way in a loooooooooog time and i know what probably most of you are thinking and not it's not Roger...... Roger has been the greatest part of my life, he's helped me through sooo much and i love him for that! lol i donno im just prolly really missing everyone but i donno i feel like there's this huge hole in me and that something is really missing! I mean i should be happy right i know what i wanna be in school, i have a fabulous guy who loves me to death, and i have a job that pays me decently...... So what's wrong with me?!?!? lol I dont understand..... I just feel really alone lately and i cant explain it..... I mean yeah i talk to some ppl here or there and all and yeah i have some friends from AMC but it's not like omg lets hang 24/7 ya know? and i understand that ppl have lives and they have their own things going on and such, i mean when Roger was home i always had someone to fall back on and now that he's away i dont have anyone to fall back on like i had with him..... Yeah he's my boyfriend and i love him more than anything in this world and i miss him more than ever!!! i donno maybe i miss my companion/my sweetheart, but on the other hand maybe i really miss my friends... or maybe im missing out on something that i dont know about i donno...... i donno what's going on with me lately i just feel kinda empty ya know it's really hard to explain i just do, all i know is that i could really use a friend..... I really need one at this point, maybe someone knows what's going on with me..... i donno all i know is that things are weird lately i mean i just got a call from a friend that i met at school and she told me that she's running away with this guy she met on myspace and apparently he lives in kansas so that's where she's heading off too.... she left everything except her money and her clothes and i guess she called her parents when she was in chicago...... lol when she told me this i was like WOW lol..... well im gonna head out if you guys have any advice to help me get out of this funk i'd deeply appreciate it! i hope you have have an awesome night and day i hope to talk and to hear from you all soon.... have a great night.... ~bye~