My Roses are Offically Red and No Longer Blue =~D
Hey everyone how are all of you?!?! well as you all know im currently in a serious relationship that is going very well i must say :) What i wanted to say in this entry is that It doesnt matter what kind of stuff you've been through in the past what you need to worry about is what is now! what is your furture... The past is nothing but fear and regret i should know i used to live in the past longer than anyone can know.... But some amazing things have happend also I met some great people who are now my friends they're there for me no matter what! Especially one friend she'z always there for me even when i could be the most worst person to be with she's still there and still hangs in there with me :) and i also have found someone who makes me soo happy that the only thing that can settle my day is just hearing his voice on the phone :)I realized that most of the things that i have gone through have been total lessons of my life it made me realize that i can be strong is horrible situations as long as im not on my allergy meds lol ;) and i also realized that I am a beautiful person! yes sometimes i feel like im nothing but shit but in reality i dont see what other's see of me! i am special in my own way which i officailly know now! and im happy that i have learned this! I dont need drugs to make me happy and i dont need beer or liqour or any kinds of drinks to waste my sadness away all i need is love! the love of my friends, family, and the one i love. They are my true addiction and my true strength i dont think life would be the same without them! I also realized that love could also be an addiction too but such a good one man when your in love it you get this rival of emotions flaring in you that person becomes the other half that you've been missing this whole time and once you finally have found that half you feel as if you become whole! but the funny part is that if you ever lose that half your miserable your lost your gone! because you've known how it felt to be whole and that's a feeling that you would never want to lose! I know this now! I'll tell you something for once in my life i feel whole i really do! :) and it makes me soo happy to feel this way and i'll never want to be a half again i dont think i could handle it... I read this one poem and ill tell you this is how i officailly feel:
Love is beautiful,Love is kind. Love is something,Hard to find.Love is great,Love is fun. Love is something,We've begun.Love is strong,Love will wait.Love is something,We can't shake.Love is forever,Love is us.Love is what we have,Not lust.I CAN'T WAIT The days keep passing,And you mean even more.I can't wait til tomorrow,To see whats in store.You just mean so much,It's hard to believe.There are so many goals,We've already achieved.I can't wait to see you,When we get old.We have our whole lives,A whole world to unfold.
I know it's kinda corny but it is how i feel these days :) But other than all that nothing new has been going on lately i've been working, going to school, and just visiting roger up at u. of m. to be honest im really enjoying the program that im currently in! it's alot of fun! :) I've met a new freind which i found out she's related to me somehow which is pretty cool :) but yeah other than that everything's been pretty cool lately! as for all of you who knows about my dad going back to the hospital he'z been much better lately he's feeling better and now he's finally working out! which makes me happy! he needs to be around a little bit longer im not yet ready to give my dad up just yet! He'z still mine and he's not going anywhere lol! :) but yeah so far everythings been very good and i've been very happy lately but it's like 11:29 pm right now and i gotta hit the hey cuz i gotta study for my exam that's going to be on tuesday so yeah i'll talk to you all very soon have a great night everyone talk to you all later bye! luv you all!
Love is beautiful,Love is kind. Love is something,Hard to find.Love is great,Love is fun. Love is something,We've begun.Love is strong,Love will wait.Love is something,We can't shake.Love is forever,Love is us.Love is what we have,Not lust.I CAN'T WAIT The days keep passing,And you mean even more.I can't wait til tomorrow,To see whats in store.You just mean so much,It's hard to believe.There are so many goals,We've already achieved.I can't wait to see you,When we get old.We have our whole lives,A whole world to unfold.
I know it's kinda corny but it is how i feel these days :) But other than all that nothing new has been going on lately i've been working, going to school, and just visiting roger up at u. of m. to be honest im really enjoying the program that im currently in! it's alot of fun! :) I've met a new freind which i found out she's related to me somehow which is pretty cool :) but yeah other than that everything's been pretty cool lately! as for all of you who knows about my dad going back to the hospital he'z been much better lately he's feeling better and now he's finally working out! which makes me happy! he needs to be around a little bit longer im not yet ready to give my dad up just yet! He'z still mine and he's not going anywhere lol! :) but yeah so far everythings been very good and i've been very happy lately but it's like 11:29 pm right now and i gotta hit the hey cuz i gotta study for my exam that's going to be on tuesday so yeah i'll talk to you all very soon have a great night everyone talk to you all later bye! luv you all!