Vent
No one reads this so I suppose I'm pretty safe to say whatever I'm thinking
Truth is I'm really sort of pissed off
I'm falling out with my friends and I haven't even gone anywhere
I'm trying to stay linked but I guess some people are too busy
Kim has her other friends, which I really don't care if she has other friends
Good for her, but don't forget about me
Charlene is always too busy with Ryan to do anything else
Even Dom has been out of reach
Carly and Ed are always together, but I can't hold that against them
Casey has Mike
Dave has Kelly
Couples are so gay
Things would be so much easier if I wasn't so bitter at everything that involves love
It seems so easy for everyone to find someone who will love them and mean it
However there I am
If I ever do fall for a guy
And he claims to love me too...
I find out it was all a lie
Why is it so easy for other people to be loved whole heartedly,
While I'm thrown aside and as if it isn't enough for new love to be thrown in my face
He has to do everything he can to still hurt me
Truth is....I'm dieing
The only best friend I really had told me that I can't really know love unless I could live alone
He said this because I have always had a boyfriend
I was never really single since I was around 13
The sad part is that I always put 100% into a relationship
Only to find out that I was never really loved at all
In the past year I have lost my boyfriend
My parents
And worst of all my best friend
I'm left alone to try and save myself
And the things I would look to that person for help
Is no longer there to help me
I'm so weak
I'm going back to old habits
And picking up new ones
I've never needed a person more in my life
But he's never needed me less
He doesn't even miss me
That makes it worse
I just need to come to terms with how easily disposable I am
....
And people wonder why I have low self esteem...
Truth is I'm really sort of pissed off
I'm falling out with my friends and I haven't even gone anywhere
I'm trying to stay linked but I guess some people are too busy
Kim has her other friends, which I really don't care if she has other friends
Good for her, but don't forget about me
Charlene is always too busy with Ryan to do anything else
Even Dom has been out of reach
Carly and Ed are always together, but I can't hold that against them
Casey has Mike
Dave has Kelly
Couples are so gay
Things would be so much easier if I wasn't so bitter at everything that involves love
It seems so easy for everyone to find someone who will love them and mean it
However there I am
If I ever do fall for a guy
And he claims to love me too...
I find out it was all a lie
Why is it so easy for other people to be loved whole heartedly,
While I'm thrown aside and as if it isn't enough for new love to be thrown in my face
He has to do everything he can to still hurt me
Truth is....I'm dieing
The only best friend I really had told me that I can't really know love unless I could live alone
He said this because I have always had a boyfriend
I was never really single since I was around 13
The sad part is that I always put 100% into a relationship
Only to find out that I was never really loved at all
In the past year I have lost my boyfriend
My parents
And worst of all my best friend
I'm left alone to try and save myself
And the things I would look to that person for help
Is no longer there to help me
I'm so weak
I'm going back to old habits
And picking up new ones
I've never needed a person more in my life
But he's never needed me less
He doesn't even miss me
That makes it worse
I just need to come to terms with how easily disposable I am
....
And people wonder why I have low self esteem...