Parental by Default
I feel really guilty as a father sometimes… scratch that! most of the times. I brought him all this way just to not be with him. After I get off work I rushing to fix dinner, I never have to sit with him anymore and go over homework, I really feel disconnected as a parent. I’m so busy scolding him I don’t have a chance to hug him.
This new position I took has no weekends but the hours during the day don’t let me sit with my son, talk about the things of the day and be the good father I want to be, I know I can be, I never had! And I know the saying goes quality not quantity but to children quantity is quality! And if that’s the case I’m giving him neither.
It wouldn’t be so bad if I had back up or a woman who didn’t mind being a mother to a child that’s not her’s… or even a decent babysitter with out hidden agendas of christen convergence, or, or… even some decent after school programs that he could participate in to pass his time while offering him comrodery. But it seems I never have the time or that ability to transport him to such occasions.
at times i feel like a fatherless child or Parental by default
This new position I took has no weekends but the hours during the day don’t let me sit with my son, talk about the things of the day and be the good father I want to be, I know I can be, I never had! And I know the saying goes quality not quantity but to children quantity is quality! And if that’s the case I’m giving him neither.
It wouldn’t be so bad if I had back up or a woman who didn’t mind being a mother to a child that’s not her’s… or even a decent babysitter with out hidden agendas of christen convergence, or, or… even some decent after school programs that he could participate in to pass his time while offering him comrodery. But it seems I never have the time or that ability to transport him to such occasions.
at times i feel like a fatherless child or Parental by default