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Sodomía
Chapter 3 - The victim
Kai didn’t know what time it was thanks to the black cloth covering the window of the room where he was. He thought about what had happened while he was in that room, but felt he had lost track of time as he had been with Kyungsoo.
Kyungsoo...
His victim was still lying in bed, sleeping, with a thin sheet hiding half of his body and covering him from the cold air that insisted on staying in the room. His chest rose and fell slowly and had his lips parted, from which he spilled some slight groans, as if dreaming.
Kai was wearing only underwear, and remained seated on the edge of the bed, clutching a small notepad, in which was possible to see a page filled with doodles of a word repeatedly written: Jongin.
Jongin...
Was that his human name? Kai wanted to believe so. He had slept what seemed to be only a few minutes with Kyungsoo, and when he woke up, decided to write the name before forgetting it again. He wrote it countless times in a blank page of his notepad. Maybe someday he could be called that again? Jongin… It wasn’t a strong and sensual name like Kai. The name didn’t reflect the threat Kai was.
The name was too human.
Kai closed the notepad and placed it on the nightstand next to the bed. He looked back at Kyungsoo and smiled while approaching him. The oldest moved crawling across the bed and stood over his victim, without touching him. The mattress sagged where his knees and hands relied, and contemplated the sleepy face of the pale young man.
How could someone be so adorable?
The immortal slightly brushed Kyungsoo’s cheek with his lips and went down to his neck. Kai hadn’t sunk his fangs deeply the night before, and the wound didn’t seem very severe. Nonetheless, still, he probably would have to put a new band-aid as soon as Kyungsoo wake up.
Kai moved away a little bit, and the younger, still sleeping, didn’t shift. Every cell of the older’s body were screaming and his instinct pleaded him to attack his victim and suck all his blood. But, at the same time, something deep in his being whispered not to do so. In his depths, Kai didn’t want to hurt Kyungsoo.
Scared of his own thoughts, Kai moved away of the younger, stopping supporting his hands on the bed and sat back on the partially nude hips of his victim. How that he didn’t want to hurt him? During his life as an immortal, Kai had thought many times about not killing more victims after their first encounter, to be able to have fun and devour them when the brunette had already felt all the pleasure he could feel with the food.
But what was that about not wanting to hurt him?
Kyungsoo moaned in a low voice and Kai looked at him, to realize that the younger was waking up. With no time to waste, Kai threw his hands over Kyungsoo’s, tugging them and crushing them against the bed on either side of the head of the recently awakened.
“Kai?” Kyungsoo moaned slightly, opening his eyes with difficulty. “Wh… What are you doing?”
“Giving you a ‘good morning’,” Kai replied. Then he approached Kyungsoo and caught his lower lip between his teeth, before running his tongue gently over his mouth.
“What a weird way of giving a ‘good morning’…” Kyungsoo wailed as he closed his eyes again, as if he were falling asleep again.
Kai smiled and shook his hips lightly several times, causing friction between his body and the pelvic area of Kyungsoo. Even though he had underwear on, it was undeniable that the touch of both members was turning Kyungsoo on, because, even with his eyes closed, he was starting to make a pouty mouth.
Kai grinned and continued to make slight movements, stimulating both of them while watching the expression on the face of the younger, who squeezed his eyes more and more and increased the pout on his lips. Not content with that, Kai laughed and reached Kyungsoo’s lips with his teeth, biting the childish pout he was insisting to keep.
Kyungsoo finally showed a reaction when moaned softly against Kai’s nibbling. He could try to deny it, but he was already turned on. When Kai moved away, Kyungsoo was forced to open his eyes and faced the older, who still held his wrists firmly while smoothly shifting on him.
“Stop,” he begged.
“No,” Kai smirked, increasing the pressure of his hips on Kyungsoo; thus, the friction between both members also increased.
“Please…” Kyungsoo pleaded, groaning. His cock was already hard and he hated himself for it. “I’m tired, you bit me yesterday…”
Kai was still moving, but now with a slower rhythm, and approached Kyungsoo’s ear to catch the love between his teeth. He started licking, sucking and biting that sensitive spot for the most people. And Kyungsoo was no different. The younger moaned and began to squirm under Kai’s body, trying to break free from the hands holding his wrist. However, the more he moved, the more friction he caused between their members, which made him breathe heavily.
“You are arousing me a lot…” Kai moaned against Kyungsoo’s ear, and the younger arched his back.
It wasn’t just Kyungsoo who was excited. Kai felt his underwear pressing against his member, but he didn’t want to stop to get rid of it. The feeling of rubbing against Kyungsoo was too pleasant.”
“Please,” Kyungsooo moaned before bitting his lower lip; and Kai stopped moving.
In his normal state, he wouldn’t have stopped even if his victim screamed, but Kai didn’t felt normal at that time. Something in Kyungsoo’s look, the way he talked, everything in him made the immortal felt… Strange.
“Take a shower…” said earnestly, getting off of Kyungsoo and sitting on the bed. “You stink like sex.”
Kyungsoo sat quickly, looking indignantly at Kai and covering his body with the sheets as he headed to the bedroom’s door.
“And why would that be?” he asked rhetorically, irritated, before leaving the room, closing strongly the door behind him.
Kyungsoo didn’t even ask where the bathroom was. Nonetheless, it wasn’t difficult to discover it, because there were just two doors in the corridor leading to the hall of the small apartment. Since one of them led to the room where Kai was half naked, sitting on bed, Kyungsoo gently opened his other option. In his eyes and equal bathroom as small as the rest of the lounge was revealed.
He closed the door and tried to truncate it, but realized there was no latch. After exhaling a sigh, he opened the small cabinet beneath the sink, pulled out a towel and placed it on the toilet seat. For someone who had lived so long, Kyungsoo thought Kai would have a better apartment, with at least a hot tub. After all, being immortal had to be stressful.
But all he found was a shower, hidden behind a translucent glass panel. The nurse dropped the sheets covering his body and saw what he already feared: that he indeed had an erection.
Kyungsoo sighed loudly while he stepped into the shower and closed the door carefully, to open the tap shortly after. He tried to ignore his erection and started to wash himself using the hygiene products he could find. He washed his hair with shampoo and noticed that it was the origin of the nice hair smell of Kai.
Kai…
The younger tried to control his thoughts, but it was difficult not to think about him when he felt his smell still on his skin, even though the water tried to remove it. Kyungsoo slowly lowered his hand until reaching his intimacy and pressed it slightly, beginning to give it a slow massage, up and down by hand throughout his length.
Kyungsoo felt his cheeks burning to be masturbating thinking about Kai, but he wasn’t able to stop. He didn't want to stop.
The movements were continuous and Kyungsoo was forced to put one of his hands on the wall in front of him for support. He felt his legs weak and thinking about Kai abusing his cock, as he had done the day before, aroused him more and more. The shower water was tapping his shoulders and he thought about Kai’s nails digging into his delicate skin while penetrating him hard.
When Kyungsoo moaned loudly, he felt a hand covering his mouth and pushing him to the back. He saw himself away from the wall and by fright, released his member quickly.
“You were thinking about me, right?” the sly voice of Kai sounded against his ear and Kyungsoo shivered, because he could feel Kai’s member brushing his buttocks.
“No…” Kyungsoo lied when Kai removed the hand covering his mouth.
Kyungsoo turned to Kai, trying to hide his erection with his hands, but all he got was to release a few muffled groans when his hands grazed his cock; Kai was standing before him, with a smile on his face, naked and almost as aroused as Kyungsoo.
The younger averted his eyes and walked away from Kai, and his back hit the wall opposite the taller.
“What are you doing here? Go away,” he said, trying to avoid eye contact with him. “I’m taking a shower, don’t you see?”
Kai laughed and approached Kyungsoo, resting his hands on the wall on either side of his body.
“The only thing I see is that you were masturbating while thinking of me…” he said sarcastically before reaching his victim’s lips.
Kyungsoo tried to resist. When he released his cock and tried to shove Kai with both hands, the older further approached him, pressing his body against his. Now there was no tissue on their members and both gasped between the kiss when their members began to rub.
“You are a pervert…” Kyungsoo moaned as he felt Kai’s tongue invading his mouth once again.
Kai’s tongue seemed to want to abuse every corner of Kyungsoo’s mouth. The latter tried to push the taller to steer clear from him, not realizing that every time he did that, their tongues touched more and a jolt of pleasure crossed his body.
“I prefer the term «sodomite»,” Kai said when he parted his lips from Kyungsoo’s. A thread of saliva ran down the mouth of the younger, who kept his eyes narrowed and a look of delight on his face.
The tallest drew back a little, smiling, and he knelt in front of Kyungsoo.
When his hot tongue grazed Kyungsoo’s glans, the latter moaned loudly and placed his hands to his face to cover his own mouth. Kai started to move his tongue around Kyungsoo’s member and then engulfed it completely, stroking with his tongue the full extent of his privacy.
Kyungsoo lowered his eyes and saw that Kai was watching him, eager to see his expressions. The younger blushed violently and led his hands to Kai’s face to cover his eyes while he kept moving his tongue over the erection of Kyungsoo.
“No… Don’t look at me,” Kyungsoo moaned after blocking Kai’s view.
That wasn’t the first time Kai gave pleasure to a victim, but certainly, that was being the best oral he had done in his immortal life. Since his main preys were people, like him, perverted, Kai was used to be erotic and receive the same answer. Observe the adverse reactions of Kyungsoo increasingly turned him on, and made him want to provoke the younger even more with each new lick.
Kai held Kyungsoo’s thighs with both hands and only used the mouth to torture his member. He licked gently and brushed the tip with his teeth, making the younger tremble.
“Kai…” Kyungsoo moaned, still covering with his hands the eyes of the older.
“What do you want…?” Kai whispered against his member; Kyungsoo moaned loudly with pleasure.
“Kai…” the immortal felt the human writhed and understood that he was reaching the climax. However, it was still too pleasurable to torture him. Kai wanted Kyungsoo to implore.
“Tell me, Kyungsoo… What do you want?” Kai withdrew Kyungsoo’s hands delicately from his eyes and stared at him.
“Let me…” Kyungsoo began, but stopped and bit his lower lip hard before continuing. “Let me cum…”
The younger looked away and Kai started to masturbate him softly with his hand, still looking at him
“Look at me and tell me: where do you want to cum? In my hand?” Kai asked with false doubt, grinning wickedly.
Kyungsoo tried to stay upright, but Kai’s hand up and down his cock wasn’t satisfying enough. He wanted something more.
“In… your mouth,” Kyungsoo said, looking at Kai embarrassed.
Kai smiled before returning to suck Kyungsoo’s member using his tongue and went back to lay his hands on his thighs, lightly squeezing the soft skin. The younger whimpered aloud and led his hands to Kai’s hair to pull it slightly and to dictate the pace of the movement.
Kai liked naive Kyungsoo… But he liked even more the Kyungsoo distorted.
The movements were continuous and fast; the younger pulled his hair and forced him to swallow his cock deep into his mouth. Kai used his mouth willingly and left Kyungsoo member, already covered with pre-cum, all impregnated with saliva.
When the younger began to emit little moans among his panting breath, Kai further increased the speed with which he made the fro movements with his mouth, until feeling the whole body of the younger trembling with spasms. The taller noted a hot liquid invading his mouth and, engulfing it, kept licking Kyungsoo’s cock, still trembling.
Kai started to slow down his movements to a halt. When he parted away from Kyungsoo and released his thighs, the younger let himself slide against the wall and ended up sitting in front of him. The water from the shower was still falling gently on both and Kai, still kneeling, sat on his calves and watched Kyungsoo whilst the breathing of the younger calmed down.
His cock was fully erect, but he felt satisfied. Kai didn’t want to force the younger to do anything in the condition in which he was and Kyungsoo kept his head down, legs spread and arms fallen on both sides of his body. Kai would have thought he was unconscious had it not been for his rapid breathing.
Kyungsoo raised his head slightly and his eyes locked with Kai’s. They didn’t say a thing before the younger extended his arms and pulled Kai to hug him. Until then, Kai had been thinking about vicious things (and nothing sultry) to try to calm his erection, but Kyungsoo’s hug wasn’t helping at all.
“What’s up?” Kai asked without corresponding the smaller’s hug.
“Nothing,” Kyungsoo replied, breathing heavily against his neck. “Suddenly I felt like hugging you. Do you mind?”
Kai smiled, trying to remember when was the last time he received a hug without second intentions. He searched in his memories and he only found once, while he was still human, when the girl with the short black hair hugged him to ask him to stop playing with black magic.
“No, I don’t mind,” Kai enveloped Kyungsoo in a tight hug and felt the younger kissing his neck.
They stayed like that for a while without worrying about the hot water falling on them, or about the fact that hunger would soon dominate Kai and end Kyungsoo’s life.
None of that mattered to the two at the moment.
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A few hours later, they were seated, properly groomed and dressed, in the small living room couch. Kyungsoo ate a small cereal bar that Kai had found lost in the kitchen cupboard. He liked to have real food in his apartment, to not let his victims starve.
After all, the weak victims for lack of food died soon.
“I think the water bill will come expensive this month…” Kyungsoo commented staring at the floor.
“There’s no problem; I have a lot of money I went collecting from my victims over the years in the bank.”
Kyungsoo looked at Kai and realized he was watching him.
“As well as murderer you are a thief?” Kyungsoo joked, as he pushed Kai’s shoulder slightly.
“Yeah…” Kai nodded with a sad smile and the younger regretted what he had said.
They were plunged into silence again and Kai laid down on the couch; he rested his arms on the backrest and then gave a small kick to Kyungsoo.
“You still haven’t told me about your life. You promised, remember?” Kai asked, giving a few taps on his arm and chest. Kyungsoo shoved Kai’s foot and laughed.
“There’s nothing interesting that I can tell. I’m not 700 years, I’m 23. My parents are also Koreans, but I never left the country. Truthfully, I don’t talk to my parents for more than four years since I started nursing school… They want me to continue the family steps and study law but when they realized I wasn’t going to change my opinion, they probably thought it was the best to forget they ever had a son…”
Kyungsoo addressed Kai a sad smile and the latter returned a slight kick.
“Don’t make that face of an abandoned puppy,” he said with half a smile, using his foot to stroke the thick thigh of Kyungsoo. “You are a nurse then?”
“In an internship. But I don’t do much in the hospital; they rarely let me take care of the patients. Normally I spend the whole day doing reports or reading diagnostics for the doctors.
Kai sat on the couch and crossed his legs as he settled to face Kyungsoo, who still looked at the floor.
“Do you live with someone? Do you have a girlfriend or friends?”
“No, Kai, I don’t have,” he answered, looking through the corner of his eye, feeling the closeness of their bodies. “As I’ve said before, I’m alone. That’s why I understand your loneliness.”
“You are alone…” Kai said, as if coming to a conclusion. “That’s why you don’t mind dying…”
Kyungsoo turned entirely to face him and stared at him seriously. His neck was wrapped again in bandages to cover the wounds that Kai caused him and to not become infected.
“Yes, Kai. That’s why I don’t mind you end up killing me.”
Kai felt a pang in the stomach and inhaled a deep breath. He was hungry.
“I’m hungry,” he said, shifting on the couch and away from Kyungsoo.
The younger, upon listening the reclamation of the other, extended his arm slightly and offered his wrist as sacrifice.
“I have all my neck pierced. Take from here, okay?” Kyungsoo smiled and Kai brushed his arm.
“I don’t want you,” Kai quickly rose from the couch and walked towards the front door of the apartment.
Kyungsoo remained seated on the couch, not understanding the older’s reaction. Not even Kai himself understood why he had refused to eat, but something told him that if he sank his fangs on Kyungsoo’s skin, he wouldn’t depart from him until his heart stopped beating.
And Kai, even if he tried to deny the reality to himself with all his might, didn’t want that.
“Kai, wai…!” Kyungsoo failed to finish his sentence because the older closed the door shut. He had left him alone.
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It was dark, probably on Saturday when Kai started seeking for his next meal. He was still lost in time since he had found Kyungsoo, and there were no clocks in his apartment. After all, why would he count the seconds of the day if his life was eternal?
His hunger was uncontrollable and just thinking that feeding from Kyungsoo would slowly end his life, that he wouldn’t open his eyes again and his heart wouldn’t beat again inside his chest, made the immortal shudder. If Kyungsoo died, Kai would have to dive back again into the pit of loneliness in which he had been sunk during the centuries of his immortal «life».
He didn’t understand why, but he didn’t want Kyungsoo to die.
He didn’t want to be alone again.
Kai picked up his pace and entered a club; the sound of music and smell of alcohol filled the whole place. It wouldn’t be difficult to find and kill a prey right here with all the darkness and bodies dancing to the same rhythm.
The immortal smiled before following the crowd, ready to choose his next meal.
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It wasn’t that Kyungsoo hadn’t considered the possibility of running away.
He approached the apartment door and opened it a little a few minutes after Kai’s departure. But, contrary to what one would expect from a person in captivity, Kyungsoo closed the door and started to walk around the apartment, cleaning the dirt.
What good would escape have if Kai could find him again? That was he told himself, as if excusing for not having run to the neighbor apartment to ask for help. When he found his backpack under the bed (he had forgotten that he had one), he took out his phone, but didn’t unlock it. Not even checked if he had missed calls or messages.
It was too obvious that no one noticed he had disappeared.
The nurse grabbed his backpack, threw it on the chair facing the bed and returned to the hall. He should have used his phone to call the police, but he didn’t want to.
Kyungsoo didn’t want to be saved.
Like any good cleaning maniac, Kyungsoo gathered all the garbage in the apartment, made the bed, pulled the sheets off and put them in the small washing machine that was in the room next to the kitchen. The young man was even about to wipe the dust when he saw a small notebook above the nightstand.
When he saw it had a pen in the middle, bookmarking a page, Kyungsoo took it in his hands. He shouldn’t be poking his nose into other people’s affairs, but curiosity was killing him. He wanted to know more about Kai, know him deeply and reach a side of him he knew remained alive, but asleep.
Kyungsoo wanted to reach the human side of Kai.
When he opened the bookmark, Kyungsoo saw doodles of all kinds, always forming the same word: Jongin.
What was that? A name? Inadvertently, Kyungsoo began to get angry and threw the notebook where he had found it, and then advanced with heavy steps to the kitchen. Who was Jongin? Any acquaintance of Kai? A lover? Kyungsoo felt his heart begin to beat faster as he opened the fridge in the kitchen of the small apartment looking for something to cook.
Who the hell was Jongin?
He scoffed when he found frozen meat in the freezer and opened the cupboards looking for some accompanying. Why Kai hadn’t told him he had someone? Why had he lied to him, telling him he was alone? Kyungsoo wasn’t jealous, no… He was just mad because Kai had lied to him. Just that.
At least that was what Kyungsoo said to himself.
Kyungsoo found an open package of pasta and stirred the kitchen and the pantry looking for the necessary condiments to prepare something to eat. In half an hour he was already furiously cooking spaghetti and stirred the spoon in the pot with more force than needed. He was still angry.
Over time, as the sauce and pasta were cooking, Kyungsoo was breathing more deeply and calming down. Kai didn’t owe him any explanation. Actually, Kyungsoo still didn’t understand how he hadn’t killed him yet. Kyungsoo’s anger slowly disappeared until becoming sadness, hollowness. Kai had left him alone, probably to get feed by that guy Jongin.
“Jongin…” whispered angrily. “I will show Kai that he doesn’t need that Jongin!”
When the dinner was ready, Kyungsoo poured some on a plate and sat down at the square dining table to eat. He wasn’t even hungry; he just wanted time to elapse faster and Kai returned.
He no longer wanted to say in that apartment alone.
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Not even five minutes Kyungsoo had begun to eat when Kai came through the door, wiping the last traces of blood that may remain in his mouth after feeding. Kai came into the room, took off his clothes stained with blood drops and took shirt with long sleeves. Then he sought Kyungsoo and followed the strange smell in the house till he got to the kitchen.
Kai did not remember the smell of freshly cooked food so, when he entered the room and saw Kyungsoo eating, he almost hit himself for having thought that it smell strange.
“Kai!” Kyungsoo smiled watching Kai standing under the door frame. “Do you want some?”
Kai approached the table and took a sit in the chair across from Kyungsoo watching him. The younger one blushed when he noticed that Kai was only wearing his bottom underwear, and looked away to eat again.
“No I’m satisfied,” Kai said with a sad smile. “Besides, you know food doesn’t satisfy me. Actually I can’t even taste it anymore.”
Kyungsoo gave the older one a sad look, whose chin was lazily supported by his hand.
“Where did you get all that?” Kai asked, pointing with his head to all the opened packages and pots in the sink.
“Ah…” Kyungsoo mumbled. “Maybe, I just maybe… I looked through your kitchen looking for something to eat.”
Kai laughed and Kyungsoo looked surprised, having expected the opposite reaction.
“It's okay. If you were hungry, you've done well in cooking,” Kai said, smiling briefly before running his hand over his face, as if thinking. “Kyungsoo...“
“Yeah?” Asked the younger one as he sucked spaghetti to get it into his mouth.
“What does it taste like?” Kai asked with a grin. “The taste of your food, how is it?”
Kyungsoo was surprised by the question, but then felt great remorse for eating in the presence of Kai. In front of him was an immortal who did not feed on anything but blood for nearly 700 years, and Kyungsoo was eating on his face, reminding him that he was no longer human.
“Ah…” He began suspiciously. “It is... Good. I think I cook well... I do not know how to explain how my spaghetti tastes. It’s salty, but in just enough, and the sauce is a little sweet.”
“It doesn’t matter if you are not able to explain it. Actually, I don’t remember the sweet or salty flavor that comes from food… Any description you make me will leave me just as confused.”
Kai smiled sadly and Kyungsoo bit his lower lip hard.
The male nurse’s heart ached, he wasn’t thinking when he rose from his chair and approached Kai. Then he turned his chair hard, revealing his bare legs in front of him. Kyungsoo wasn’t thinking when he sat on the lap of his future murderer, placing one leg on each side of his body, and hugging him tightly.
Kai opened his eyes, surprised, but didn’t return the hug. Kyungsoo buried his head in the crook of the immortal’s neck and began placing delicate kisses along its entire length.
“Forgive me…” Kyungsoo moaned and Kai noticed that his muscles relaxed. “I shouldn’t have eaten in front of you.”
Kai grabbed Kyungsoo by the shoulders and pushed him gently.
“Show me what your food tastes like,” Kai smiled a mischievously before pulling out his tongue a bit.
Kyungsoo smiled and for the first time, he felt no shame, misgivings or doubts when he approached Kai. Their tongues collided in midair as their lips met, both bodies shivered. Although the immortal was not able to distinguish the taste of the food, the taste of Kyungsoo was better than any food in the world. Kai sucked willingly the tongue of the younger one, as he got his hands under his shirt and up to his torso.
When they separated briefly to breath, Kyungsoo directed his lips to Kai's neck and started making a few hickies and love bites on his skin. The shorter ran his hands through the hair of the other one, sliding his fingers through the strands and stroking it, leaving Kai almost entranced by the pampering received. But when Kyungsoo bit his neck hard, Kai moaned loudly and quickly pushed him with his big hands
“What was that?” He asked, raising an eyebrow and smiling a half smile.
“To show you how it hurts,” Kyungsoo said pouting, as if he was a child.
Kai laughed before approaching and biting his lips, gaining a groan. The taller threatened to strip Kyungsoo’s from his shirt when the shorter stopped him. The male nurse had other plans in mind.
“I think I owe you something,” Kyungsoo murmured softly against the skin of Kai, who flinched.
The immortal was starting to get frustrated with his own body; such a reaction was not normal for a mere whisper. Kai did not want to believe it, but he was turned on by Kyungsoo’s body.
Kyungsoo felt Kai's erection under his body and smirked before starting to make circular motions with his hips as he attacked the tallest’s mouth voraciously. Kyungsoo didn’t know what was happening, but the simple idea that Kai had someone else made him want to prove him that he didn’t need anyone else but him as a prey.
Kyungsoo wanted to be the only one.
Kai was breathing hard between kisses exchanged with the younger. Kyungsoo didn’t let the older one scape and grabbed him by the sides of his face hard, forcing him to stay in front all the time. Their tongues caressed and bumped violently, as if the world was to end at any moment and both needed to take the opportunity to feel the taste of each other.
With a click caused by the kiss, Kyungsoo separated from Kai and gave him a sly look before getting up from his lap. The immortal did not expect his prey to take control of the situation, because normally he was who ordered what happened between him and his victims. Kai's heart beat too fast under his ribs and wondered if he was anxious again.
This was not a good sign.
Kyungsoo knelt before Kai and gently spread his legs before reaching the older erection with his fingertips. Kai was still wearing his underwear, black boxer underpants, but the fabric was not thick enough to exempt the most erotic feeling contact of Kyungsoo fingers.
The nurse stared at Kai while gently massaging his cock, and the immortal threw his head back, refusing to continue to see the mischievous look of Kyungsoo. Kai felt his erection throbbing inside his shorts and could not wait to end this torment and penetrate Kyungsoo until he begs mercy for being so naughty.
Kyungsoo slid his hands to the waistband of the underwear and Kai started pulling it slowly. The immortal forced himself to look back to Kyungsoo and rose a few inches from his chair to let Kyungsoo withdraw completely his boxers, exposing his throbbing erection.
“You are blushing…” commented Kyungsoo smiling, clutching Kai’s member with his hand.
“N... no, I'm not…” Kai moaned, feeling an unfamiliar warmth in the cheeks. What the hell was happening?
Kyungsoo giggled before pressing his lips against Kai’s member and gave it little kisses. Unlike other times when the two had had intercourse, this time the younger felt no shame. He wanted to show Kai that he was a much better meat than this Jongin guy.
If that made any sense.
Kyungsoo licked all Kai's erection to lubricate it. The younger one could feel the veins throbbing against his tongue and the moans Kai was making,encouraged him to continue. When Kyungsoo wrapped Kai’s cock with his mouth, he heard a long moan and laughed inside.
He'd bet he was still much better than this guy Jongin.
Moving slowly, Kyungsoo sucked Kai as he felt his hands reaching his hair. Kai was suffering. Since when was oral sex so pleasurable? Unconsciously, Kai pulled Kyungsoo's hair, which made him increase the speed of his movements.
Kai didn’t use to moan a lot; he rather smiled sarcastically as his victims writhed in pleasure beneath him. The weak and continuous moans coming from his mouth as Kyungsoo sucked and licked his member were not normal.
Kyungsoo could already taste the pre-cum in his mouth and smiled before abandoning Kai’s member. The older one looked desolated and Kyungsoo smiled before starting to masturbate him with quick movements, while he licked his cock slowly, as if he wasn’t making Kai twist his muscles in pleasure.
Kai dug his nails in Kyungsoo’s hair and Kyungsoo sank his cock into his mouth one last time as Kai reached his limit.
Noticing his muscles tensing, Kai threw his head back, let out a long moan, and came into Kyungsoo’s mouth. The younger one was not prepared for the amount of semen and failed to swallow it all, which fell from his mouth and landed on the floor.
Kyungsoo, still kneeling, sat back on his calves and began to clean as he could the corners of his mouth. Kai looked at the younger, still breathing heavily. He leaned over the table and knelt before Kyungsoo, bringing his fingers to his lips to clean him.
“I’m sorry,” he said while wiping a lot of cum from the younger’s chin. “I should’ve warned you that I was going to cum.”
Kai brought his lips to Kyungsoo’s and kissed him introducing his tongue in the younger’s mouth feeling his own taste, which vaguely reminded him the taste of the blood he drank from his victims. The kiss was quiet and gentle, very different to the caresses of a few minutes ago, much more brutal.
“I was better than Jongin, right?” Kyungsoo asked when Kai pulled apart from his lips a few inches.
Kai opened his eyes and turned away from Kyungsoo, looking confused.
“What?” He asked, and Kyungsoo regretted what he had said. He should not know anything about Jongin.
“Ah, Kai... Forgive me, but I opened your notebook and saw that name there... Written repeatedly,” Kyungsoo said, pouting childishly.
“Have you been rummaging through my stuff?” Kai asked, in a serious tone.
“Sorry,” Kyungsoo said quietly, averting his gaze. “Can I know who is he? Who is Jongin?”
Kyungsoo felt Kai moving in front of him and then heard a laugh. The younger looked up quickly and saw Kai's mouth covered by his hands as he laughed out loud.
“What are you laughing at?” Kyungsoo asked irritably.
“You're a complete idiot,” Kai began laughing and, seeing that Kyungsoo opened his mouth to reply, he tried to keep talking. “An adorable fool! Have you done all this because you were jealous?”
“N...no, I was not jealous! But it is very foul to have relationships with two people at the same time, even if you are going to feed on them later,” Kyungsoo said, crossing his arms and deflecting another look.
Kai brought his hands to Kyungsoo’s cheeks and squeezed them, forcing him to look into his eyes. Kyungsoo's mouth looked like a little fish, due to the force with which Kai pressed the side of his face.
“Jongin... Is a name I remembered from my past when you asked me if I was alone. I'm pretty sure that "Jongin" is my name.”
Kyungsoo felt his cheeks burning and Kai also felt the heat in the palms of his hands. The younger one was feeling extremely idiot for being jealous of Kai with... Kai himself.
Oh, jealous? No... It was not jealousy, he told himself as he tried to formulate a sentence to answer Kai. He definitely was not jealous.
“Ah…” He began, uncertain how to proceed.
“When I'm with a victim it’s not my habit to go after another, don’t worry.”
“So where were you?” Kyungsoo asked suspiciously.
“I went to grab a snack... I didn’t even notice his face. You are different; you are a victim, not a hobby. I am only with you. You are the only one.”
Kyungsoo felt his heart pounding. He was the only one. Of course, due to the conditions of his relationship with Kai, the younger shouldn’t be feeling so happy with the information. But that didn’t matter when he grinned and hugged Kai in the middle of the kitchen.
Kai hugged him back awkwardly. He still didn’t understand what was going on between him and his victim; other relationships were based purely on sex, to shortly after be fed. Dams that had stayed with him a few days before dying had just showed no affection for him, only lust.
Very different from Kyungsoo.
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“Can I call you Jongin then?” Asked Kyungsoo against Kai’s neck skin. Both were lying in bed for some hours; Kai told stories about him passing through different countries and how it was fun to learn new languages and hunt new dams.
“No,” Kai replied seriously and Kyungsoo shrugged, still hugging the older. “That name belongs to a human, and I'm not one anymore.”
Kyungsoo leaned against the mattress using one arm and Kai looked at him.
“I think you're human,” he said with a serious expression on his face; Kai looked at him.
“I have the appearance of one, but I'm not. I am a condemned person, you know it,” he said, rubbing Kyungsoo’s neck, now without bandages, with his fingertips. “I made this...”
“Jongin…” Kyungsoo said, and Kai shivered “... Suits you better than Kai.”
Kai smiled sadly and sat on the mattress, followed by Kyungsoo. Both were properly dressed and although Kai wanted, a few minutes ago, to rip Kyungsoo’s clothes and possess him in all possible ways, the younger one had asked him to stop because he was exhausted. It wasn’t like Kai, but he obeyed.
“Seriously, do not call me that,” Kai looked at him seriously and Kyungsoo slid his hand up to find Kai’s, and then tightened it.
“Jong…” Kyungsoo started to say, but was stopped when Kai turned quickly and slammed him into the mattress with one of his hands on his neck, choking him.
Kai's eyes had a different brightness than usual and Kyungsoo opened his eyes, feeling his heart pounding. For the first time since he had met Kai, he was scared.
“I'm not human. I'm condemned to live forever, killing as many people as possible to feed me,” Kai said through clenched teeth as he pressed his hand against his neck and kept the other on his chest.
Kyungsoo brought his hands up to his shoulders and tried to push Kai, but the immortal was much stronger than him.
“Kai... Ple... Please…” He wailed, beginning to feel tears in his eyes.
The pressure on his neck did not stop and Kyungsoo clawed at the broad shoulders of the immortal.
“Kai...”
Kai blinked several times until he came to his senses. He released Kyungsoo and turned away from him; getting out of bed, he began to walk around the room, running his hands through his hair nervously. The younger one sat back on the bed, coughing and rubbing his neck trying to catch his breath.
“Get out,” Kai said suddenly, standing in front of Kyungsoo.
“What?” Kyungsoo asked with wide eyes, thinking he had misunderstood what he had said.
Kai was starting to get hungry again and could not bear to kill Kyungsoo. He did not want his victim to die. The immortal did not know what was happening, but thought it was best to vacate Kyungsoo, save it and never see him again, before killing him on an impulse.
“I don’t want to feed on you anymore. Go away and thank me that I saved your mediocre life,” Kai said, taking the backpack of Kyungsoo off the chair and throwing it on the younger.
“Kai, why are you behaving like this?” Kyungsoo asked with tears, still sitting on the bed.
Kai sighed and bit his lower lip hard. How he wished not want to kill Kyungsoo...
“Come here,” Kai said in mock anger, approaching the bed and pulling Kyungsoo by his arm to make him stand.
The pressure in Kyungsoo’s arm was too strong that the younger one was whimpering, asking him to stop acting that way. Kai dragged him out of the room and led him to the hall of the apartment, where he released him. Kyungsoo put his back against the door and rubbed his sore arm.
“I'm not leaving,” Kyungsoo said decisively, preventing Kai from opening the door.
“Yes, you will. I've lost interest in you,” he lied, trying to push Kyungsoo to open the door and take the younger outside.
“Liar!” Kyungsoo cried. “I don’t want to go, Kai, please. I do not want to be alone again!”
“Alone?” Kai asked sarcastically. “You kept being alone here, do not be stupid. You were just food to me. I'm saving your life leaving you free. Thank me and get out.”
“No,” Kyungsoo said seriously, even though his voice was being blocked by the cries that were still imprisoned in his throat and tears that insisted on leaving his eyes.
“If you don’t get out, I'll kill you right now,” Kai said, his eyes fixed on those of Kyungsoo. His big hands were on the shoulders of the younger one, squeezing hard.
“Then, kill me,” Kyungsoo said without hesitation. Kai sighed and rested his head on the shorter’s chest, defeated.
“Let's do this, then...” He began softly. “When I want to feed again, I will seek for you.”
Kyungsoo relaxed his muscles and gently tugged Kai, to hug him. Kai didn’t hug him back.
“Why are you doing all this?” Kyungsoo asked again, sobbing.
“I'm trying to save the little humanity that might still be left in me,” Kai said, pushing Kyungsoo gently.
Kyungsoo wanted to approach Kai and kiss him, but he pushed him out of the apartment and slammed the door shut right after. Although Kai had said those cruel words, the younger knew it was a lie. When the two were together, there was no loneliness. And even if Kai was condemned to immortality and Kyungsoo was only a nurse with a mortal life, he didn’t want to leave that apartment.
The younger took some steps, still crying, till he reached the stairs of the small building and began to walk them down. It had only been a few days, how could he feel so connected to him? Kyungsoo never believed in fate, but he was starting to believe that his mission in life was to help Kai to recover his humanity. That his mission was to love him.
Kyungsoo was frightened by the idea. Did he love Kai?
The younger shook his own thoughts as he walked through the door of the building and saw the outside world again after days. The sun was out and he didn’t know what day of the week was; but that didn’t matter as he sat at a bus stop, waiting to go home.
He felt empty inside.
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Kai sat on the sofa in his apartment. For 700 years he had thought that there weren’t any more feelings within that shell he called body but when the tears began to fall from his eyes, he had to admit he was sad. Kai hadn’t cried since he was human, since he had seen the woman he loved burned alive.
His tears had a pink color and a ferrous taste like blood.
The immortal covered his eyes with his hands, trying to hold back the tears that came and began to sob; he choked a few times on his own saliva amid of strong crying. He didn’t know why he was sad, but his immortal heart ached. Kai had attempted suicide on many occasions, and had claimed many lives, he had seen a lot of brutality... And nothing, nothing made him shed a tear.
The more he thought about Kyungsoo, the more he panicked. Because the more he cared about him, as soon as he ceased to be a random victim, the more intense pain the immortal would feel when losing him. Kai couldn’t bear to see him die because of him, because of his voracious hunger... But neither could bear to see the withering of the human body over the years, dying slowly, until one day his heart stops beating.
But deep in his heart, Kai wanted Kyungsoo had insisted on staying once more. He wanted to not have to feel an uncontrollable bloodlust; he wanted to go out in the sunlight without feeling uncomfortable. Kai wanted, more than anything in the world, to feel normal.
Kai wanted more than anything to be human again.