fitter happier
i bought these today in order to fill up just a bit more of my house with shoes.
that and watching movies and reading books is making me feel better. aquatic adventures and stories about rockets..
i miss everyone again. them being home reminded me of the days of trampoline parties and writing ridiculous songs and throwing anything we could find from great heights. and movies we made. the few people that are still here, i don't see enough of. i hope to put that right.
i feel very high school again, and the winter is lasting too long. i'm thinking less and less of it the longer it is here, and i don't think much of this year yet at all. i've been spending most of it with all the wrong people.
i don't think much of a lot of people these days. thinking of them and their putrid little lives makes me sad. luckily there are still a few people who i think a great deal of. i wish there was an actual different world we could inhabit, as opposed to the little world we created for ourselves. that world is invisible, around us, people can walk in from the outside and destroy pieces of it. and it's connected to other worlds, like those of the people who make the music and movies we love, and maybe connected to yours. and if we could make these worlds real, and detatch them from everything else and from those repulsive people, maybe we could all be better, happier, maybe that would be it.