All Apologies
I'm sure you'll never see this, so I'm not really sure why I'm even writing it.
I found your letter today. To be honest, I'd forgotten you'd written it.
But it was hidden away, along with something that I'll cherish literally to the day I die--which means that, at some point, it was equally as important to me.
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry for how I treated you. I wish I could say that I was young and stupid, and that would be a valid excuse. But you and I both know that I wasn't stupid, and I wasn't immature.
I think I was selfish.
It didn't start out that way. I only wanted to be your friend. I could see the sadness in your eyes, and I hated it. I just wanted you to have someone to talk to. Someone who could challenge you, who could make you laugh.
I never expected us to get so close. I didn't think you would ever take me seriously--that I could ever matter to you, especially not like that. I didn't think we would click the way we did.
As the years have gone by, I've thought of you often. When I added you on facebook, I didn't expect you to accept. But you did. We've never really talked about anything that happened, and I don't think we ever will. We've both grown past those people we used to be. We both have different lives, and we have people who count on us.
But I just wanted you to know that I'm sorry. You didn't deserve what happened. My only excuse is that I was young, and I was stupid, no matter how inadequate it may be.
I did care about you. That was why I reached out to you to begin with.
I just didn't want you to be sad.
I'm sorry if I made it worse.
I found your letter today. To be honest, I'd forgotten you'd written it.
But it was hidden away, along with something that I'll cherish literally to the day I die--which means that, at some point, it was equally as important to me.
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry for how I treated you. I wish I could say that I was young and stupid, and that would be a valid excuse. But you and I both know that I wasn't stupid, and I wasn't immature.
I think I was selfish.
It didn't start out that way. I only wanted to be your friend. I could see the sadness in your eyes, and I hated it. I just wanted you to have someone to talk to. Someone who could challenge you, who could make you laugh.
I never expected us to get so close. I didn't think you would ever take me seriously--that I could ever matter to you, especially not like that. I didn't think we would click the way we did.
As the years have gone by, I've thought of you often. When I added you on facebook, I didn't expect you to accept. But you did. We've never really talked about anything that happened, and I don't think we ever will. We've both grown past those people we used to be. We both have different lives, and we have people who count on us.
But I just wanted you to know that I'm sorry. You didn't deserve what happened. My only excuse is that I was young, and I was stupid, no matter how inadequate it may be.
I did care about you. That was why I reached out to you to begin with.
I just didn't want you to be sad.
I'm sorry if I made it worse.