i said i was gunna keep this up, didnt i?
im overwhelmed.
im so sore. im so achey. im so out of shape for my regular sself.
STRESS! ARghH!
see that?! im too hard on myself. i was JUST talking about this last night. im too hard on myself, and it makes me more stressed, but i dont want lee-way! i dont want room. dont you see those shwos on tv? a kidsp arent dies and they become obese cause they dont know any better way to control their feelings. I WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN TO ME. i refuse to be a stereotype and i refuse to let what happened to me, compeltely change my life and my lifestyle. if i did, he would have won, but i didnt want him to, and he hasnt, not in that sense at least, but there is alot that he has done that might never fade, not even with time.
so ACHEY.
i need to run.
but i dont think i could ever step foot outside ever again without someone by my side. infact, i dont think i have since the incident.
STRESS.
i just want to be back to normal.
i just want spring break to be here.
i just want want want want want.
THAT DOESNT FIX ANYTHING.
i dont know what i want.
im so sore. im so achey. im so out of shape for my regular sself.
STRESS! ARghH!
see that?! im too hard on myself. i was JUST talking about this last night. im too hard on myself, and it makes me more stressed, but i dont want lee-way! i dont want room. dont you see those shwos on tv? a kidsp arent dies and they become obese cause they dont know any better way to control their feelings. I WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN TO ME. i refuse to be a stereotype and i refuse to let what happened to me, compeltely change my life and my lifestyle. if i did, he would have won, but i didnt want him to, and he hasnt, not in that sense at least, but there is alot that he has done that might never fade, not even with time.
so ACHEY.
i need to run.
but i dont think i could ever step foot outside ever again without someone by my side. infact, i dont think i have since the incident.
STRESS.
i just want to be back to normal.
i just want spring break to be here.
i just want want want want want.
THAT DOESNT FIX ANYTHING.
i dont know what i want.